In this counseling answer:
• Cut every contact with this brother.
• Appreciate yourself.
• Talk to your parents about marriage in general.
As-Salamu `Alaikum sister,
Thank you for sending us your question. May Allah (swt) help you to find peace and serenity within yourself and grant you the strength to have the power to overcome your heart’s desires.
It seems you are really hurt and disappointed about what happened with you and this brother. From your description, you thought very highly of him. You were shattered when he no longer contacted you. You put your trust in him, and you gave him the keys to your heart to the extent that you were dependant on him and felt emotionally fulfilled. You thought that he was “honest, trustworthy, and pious, and he would never do something like this,” – but he did.
To add to your frustration, you felt that your parents would not support you in this marriage because of their mindset which already put you in a difficult position, to begin with. You certainly must feel very alone because the thing that you wanted most did not happen.
It’s ok and natural to feel this pain. Most people in your position would feel upset. You are a young adult and, Allah (swt) has started to expose you to hardships so you can grow intellectually and spiritually. The most important lesson to learn from these hardships is that we must put our full trust in Allah (swt) alone, and not other people because people are not perfect.
This brother you had high hopes for disappointing you. Allah (swt) knew that you put all your hopes in this brother and that you were dependant on him to fulfill your emotional needs. However, Allah (swt) does not want you to define your self-worth based on this man’s approval, so it may be that Allah (swt) willed for this ending of the relationship to happen. It had to happen because you needed to understand that this feeling of fulfillment should come from within yourself and from Allah (swt) before anyone else can claim your heart.
Allah (swt) only knows if you are meant to marry this brother or not. However, I don’t advise you to continue contacting this brother. You should never be put in a position to feel like you are begging for the other person’s attention. If this brother was serious about you and wanted to marry you, he would have contacted you and asked for your parents’ contact information so he can speak to them frankly about his intentions.
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Appreciate yourself. Get to know yourself more and learn to improve your strengths and work on your weaknesses. Start to love yourself and most importantly love and trust Allah (swt) more than anything and anyone. The painful feelings that you have been experiencing now will heal with time. You will get through this, in sha’ Allah.
A final suggestion for you would be to talk to your parents about marriage in general. Try to get on the same page with them regarding your ideas and beliefs about how the best spouse would be like. Be open and honest about your feelings and actions.
There may be a generational and cultural gap between you and them, but it is a universal human feeling to enjoy your children’s companionship. Help them to understand you and try to understand them so when it becomes time for marriage, things can happen harmoniously among you.
May Allah (swt) choose the best for you!
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