In this counseling answer:
• To be clear, Allah does not care what you did in the past. He only cares that you realized your sin and overcame it by ending the sin and asking for forgiveness.
• I would suggest that you focus on yourself and your goals from this point forward.
• I understand that many cultures put negative stigmas on females who have had sexual experiences prior to marriage. I would like to remind you that this is a culture and not Islam.
As-Salamu ‘Alaykum Sister,
Thank you for sending us your question. It seems like you are currently suffering from the trauma this man has caused you. I ask Allah to help you overcome whatever he did to you and to help you forgive and love yourself in order to move on.
Sister, I would first like to say that I am proud that you decided to change and become a better person. This is from Allah’s mercy upon you; He made you realize through that man that you were doing something wrong. As a result, you repented. This is in of itself a triumph; it is an indication that in sha’ Allah you have won. Please believe it, for Allah wants you to value yourself and to move away from the sinful things – regardless of whether you once did them.
Don’t Put Yourself Down!
I can read that you are very upset with yourself and think very low of yourself at this point. Don’t continue to put yourself down like you did when you were with this guy! Allah made you realize that this relationship was bad for you and it ended al-hamdu lillah. Believe it that this realization was Allah’s mercy on you. It could have been much worse. Allah decreed that each and every human being commit sins. It is a natural part of life. But the one who is special to Allah is the one who overcomes one’s desires, stops sinning, and sincerely repents.
To be clear, Allah does not care what you did in the past. He only cares that you realized your sin and overcame it by ending the sin and asking for forgiveness. Forgiveness means that you have acknowledged that something happened in the past which was wrong; you ended it, and made a choice not to let it define who you are now. In other words, Allah wants you to move on by assuring us that He will forgive every sin we commit as long as we realize that it was wrong and we repent.
Allah wants us to also forgive ourselves because He wants us to understand that repentance is like a new page in life. Allah erases the sins as if they have never happened. So if Allah the Almighty forgives us, why shouldn’t we forgive ourselves?
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As for your question related to whether or not Allah will forgive that man, please leave that to Allah. No human being can say whether or not that man will be forgiven or not forgiven. Forgiveness is designated to Allah alone. Don’t make this guy your problem now. Move beyond him and start making yourself busy with things you believe are important.
Focus on Your Goals
As for your second question, you mentioned that he is happy. How can he be happy if he told you that he is not happy with his wife? He is married on paper and in front of people, yet he is reaching out to other women to have extra-marital relationships with. How can he be happy? Is that happiness to you?
I would suggest that you focus on yourself and your goals from this point forward. If you want to work on becoming a better Muslim, then, by all means, work towards this goal. Understand that Allah took you away from this guy because He loves you and wants you to live a different and better life. Make it a reality.
I understand that many cultures put negative stigmas on females who have had sexual experiences prior to marriage. I would like to remind you that this is a culture and not Islam. Don’t let it get to you. Focus on yourself now and learn to love Allah. Once you start to busy yourself with focusing on Allah, you will realize that He only wants us to love ourselves, because only this positive energy from love can we attain greatness.
May Allah help you,
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