In this counseling answer:
• Seek help immediately for your mental health issues from a professional in your area.
• Revenge is Allah’s (swt) and holding on to hateful feelings, revengeful desires, or other harmful thoughts towards self or others is emotionally dangerous.
As-Salamu ‘Alaikum dear brother,
I am sorry to hear about what your x wife and in-laws did to you. However, revenge is Allah’s (swt) and holding on to hateful feelings, revengeful desires, or other harmful thoughts towards self or others is emotionally dangerous. It could lead to you actually harming someone, thus ruing not only their life but your own as well.
I would kindly suggest, dear brother, that you seek help immediately for your mental health issues from a professional in your area. I would not wait. I also suggest that in sha’ Allah, you speak with an Imam for guidance and support in your journey towards forgiving and healing as Allah (swt) loves those who forgive, as we would like to be forgiven by Allah (swt). I encourage you to pray, make du’aa’ concerning this, and seek Allah’s (swt) forgiveness for these thoughts and his mercy.
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While we all have had experiences in life wherein an injustice was done to us, we normally do not seek revenge. However, if we suffer from a mental disorder, it may distort our thinking, causing us to feel irrational. It is imperative, brother, that you seek help now before your anger destroys your life. You have a new wife whom you are happy with, a good job as a doctor at a government hospital, and a new life ahead of you. Why would you risk all of that for something that happened in the past and is now over? Let Allah (swt) deal with this injustice and seek the help you need to heal.
You are in our prayers, dear brother. Please let us know how you are doing.
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