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“Some good suggestions are to speak to your imam about obtaining the Islamic divorce. Find a divorce lawyer to help settle child custody issues. Figure out where you want to live, and how you will financially support yourself.”
As-Salam ‘Alaikum dear sister,
Thank you for sending us your question. I am sorry to hear about your deteriorating marriage and your current situation. I have no doubt that you are going through a great difficulty. I ask Allah to give you the strength and courage to help you to find your way and to reach your goals.
Alhamdulillah, I am happy to read that you have already made an informed decision about your marriage based on your own reflections and insight. You have mentioned that you no longer want to stay married to your husband based on the examples that you have mentioned and have lived through already.
As Muslims, we do not quickly jump to divorce as a solution. However, if an individual has tried all that is in their power to change a negative situation to no avail, then Islamically divorce does become an option. You came to this conclusion taking into consideration the Islamic aspects of your rights and responsibilities as a Muslim wife towards her husband. That being said, I support you with your decision because you know fully what you are doing. Your decision was not taken out of heedlessness. Rather, you thought it through and logically came to your conclusion. Again, I commend you.
The issue now is to go through this decision which is more difficult than one might think. Divorce is certainly one of the most difficult things a human being can go through because it entails many losses and a complete change in one’s lifestyle and environment. Therefore, when one makes a decision, they must fully take responsibility for it.
In your case, the difficulties that you are encountering are several. First, you are living away from your two youngest children. Second, the Muslim community has been unsupportive of your separation. Third, your husband has been continuously making you feel guilty about your decision.
All three factors have taken a negative toll on you emotionally and have caused you to isolate yourself from people and feel down. It also may have made you feel confused about what you really want to do. Therefore, you may feel “stuck” and claim that you do not know what to do. This is to be expected when someone goes through something as difficult as a divorce. However, if you truly believe that your decision is the right one, then be patient with these difficulties.
You have mentioned that all you want is for him to realize the reasons why you left him in the first place. Sister, it would be a wonderful thing if he understood your pain, but do not be surprised if he chooses not to understand. The fact that he does not want to understand your point-of-view only shows how much he does not want to make a positive change in the marriage. This, naturally, should reinforce your decision to leave (if that is what you want to do).
If you still have a glimmer of hope that the marriage could work, I would advise that the both of you continue to see your imam and participate in marriage counseling. Marriage counseling is important because you will be helped by a trained professional who will assist the both of you realize your goals and help you to reach them as a couple. In many ways, marriage counselors help you to be accountable and they continue to follow-up with you more closely than anyone else because that is their job. Marriage counseling does, however, require that the both of you be open, honest, and completely willing to make a positive change for the sake of the marriage. Otherwise, it will not help.
In the meantime, take care of yourself emotionally and physically. Engage in positive activities such as exercising, reading, working, and socializing with people who care about you. Also, focus on making a decision about your marriage and be proactive in reaching your goals. Do not wait for things to happen. Rather, you should make them happen. If you decide to try again to save your marriage, then do what is needed to make the necessary appointments (with imam and counselor) to help the both of you reach this goal. If you believe that your marriage will not work, focus on how you will go through with the divorce.
Some good suggestions are to speak to your imam about obtaining the Islamic divorce. Find a divorce lawyer to help settle child custody issues. Figure out where you want to live, and how you will financially support yourself.
I ask Allah to help you make the right decision for yourself and to give you strength and courage to overcome all difficulties that you encounter.
Salam,
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