But now it has become serious because when I do something like take a shower I feel like it’s my last shower. When my mom goes shopping I feel like I will never see her again. I don’t know why this happens, why I have excessive thoughts of death in my head. I feel like it’s a sign from Allah that I am going to die.
Please tell me what’s happened to me. I am so depressed. Nowadays I hear voices and visual effects of death. I don’t know why this suddenly happens. I feel these are my last days! Why are these suddenly happening to me? I feel it is a sign or indication or message from Allah that my time is near. Please help me!
Answer
In this counseling session:
- There are many ways this can be treated with medication, psychological therapy as well as spiritual therapy too.
- I would first urge you to go to your doctor to discuss your symptoms and get a more formal diagnosis.
- Seek ongoing counselling so that you can get the ongoing support you will need in overcoming this condition.
Wa alaikum salaam wa rahmatulahi wa barakatuh sister,
I can understand how this must be very distressing for you both physically and psychologically as it seems to be affecting you in many ways. From what you have presented here, it looks alot like you are experiencing anxiety. There are many ways this can be treated with medication, psychological therapy as well as spiritual therapy too.
Anxiety
I would first urge you to go to your doctor to discuss your symptoms and get a more formal diagnosis. Whilst it sounds a lot like it could be anxiety, it may also be something else. Your doctor will be able to assess you and refer you to the relevant people to get assessed and treated in the most suitable way depending on if it is anxiety, or if it is something else.
There may be some other underlying condition present which your doctor will be able to check. Regardless of whether it is something else, or if it is an anxiety disorder. You are experiencing symptoms that are causing you great distress and whilst you are seeking medical advice on this, you can also consider some things in the meantime.
Health
To be living with anxiety, regardless if it is due to a diagnosis of an anxiety disorder or a symptom or something else. Or otherwise just intense feelings of anxiety without the presence of an actual disorder, can be incredibly debilitating to live with, as you know.
It is impacting on you physically and psychologically and is interfering with your daily life. Whilst you await medical assessment and intervention, there are a few things you can do. That can help to alleviate the symptoms of anxiety, both physically and psychologically.
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Spiritual
From a spiritual perspective, turning to Allah for the sake of pleasing Him in praise and contemplation will naturally reduce your levels of anxiety as you get closer to Him. Certainly, do fear Him, but also focus on His Mercy too and find comfort in the remembrance of His Mercy as a means to reduce your levels of anxiety.
Studies have even shown the very practice of praying and reading the Qur’an can counter the symptoms of anxiety by reducing blood pressure, heart rate and respiration rate. Alhamdulilah. As these things settle, you will find that your racing mind will also calm too.
Psychological
From a psychological perspective, ask yourself what’s the worst that could happen? We all have to die and we should all be prepared for that day. Focus on being good and preparing for that day and pleasing Allah.
So that you feel less need to be anxious about dying and instead are focused on Allah’s Mercy and the beauties of Jannah. No one knows when it is their time. It could be today, it could be in 50 years or so we all have to prepare for that day.
This is not to trivialise what you are going through, because certainly it is evidently very distressing to you to be going through this, but it is a means to open your eyes to other things that can be so easy to overlook when going through such intense negative and difficult experiences.
Positivity
Take some time to look at the positives in this situation, Alhamdulilah, it seems to have made you very conscious of Allah as you fear death and His punishment. You can use this heightened level of Allah consciousness in your favor.
By continuing to return to Him to seek forgiveness for the things you fear. And live in such a way that Allah will be pleased with. In sha Allah, you will overcome these intense feelings you are going through and come out a stronger person better equipped to deal with the various trials of this life.
Conclusion
At the end of this, if it is determined that you do have an anxiety disorder do continue to contemplate over the things mentioned here. But I would also recommend that you seek ongoing counselling so that you can get the ongoing support you will need in overcoming this condition.
Also, you might consider taking anxiety reducing medication if necessary. To stabilize the physical effects. And take the edge of the most severe effects to allow you to deal with the psychological components in recovery.
May Allah bring you ease during this distressing time. And may you find comfort in His remembrance. May this experience be a source of purification for you that will be the source of the highest ranks in both this life and the next in search of His pleasure.
Salam,
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