You have been in a haram relationship, but, alhamdulillah, you have repented of your sin to Allah.
Repentance is a private matter between us and Allah, so maybe he did the same before he passed away.
Focus on this and on healing after your loss before thinking about marriage again.
Only Allah knows what the future has in store for you. Strengthen your connection with Allah, make dua for Him, and trust in His mercy.
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