I am a 26-year-old woman with 3 kids, alhamdulillah. My parents conducted my nikah when I was 16 years old, although I was too young at the time. My husband and I had a physical relationship, and after that, we did not meet for a long time.
During that time, I forgot my values and committed adultery so many times. After 5 years, I forgot all the things that happened to me and became happily married to my husband, but as time passed, I was dying inside.
I told my husband everything I’ve done, and he forgave me. Alhamdulillah, now our relationship is going very well, but I still feel depressed and hopeless. I’ve gotten closer to Allah; I offer my prayer regularly, fast, and pay charity.
However, there is something that keeps bothering me and I’ve grown sick of my mental condition. Will Allah forgive me? How can I gain peace of mind? I am very disturbed nowadays. Please advise me, thank you.
In this question, you will learn:
Trust Allah that as you sincerely repented, He has forgiven you.
So, forgive yourself as well. It is only Satan who whispers you such thoughts that Allah is not going to forgive you.
Avoid anything that might lead you to commit this haram act again. Avoid any temptation.
Consider the positive changes that this sin has brought in your life.
Sit down and allow yourself for a short time to feel those negative emotions. Then inshallah you will be able to let them go and focus on your future.