Thank you for writing us. I’m sorry to hear about the distress you are going through, dear brother. It does, indeed, sound like you are suffering from anxiety disorder; however, only a counselor can assess you and make that diagnosis.
Anxiety disorder/Panic disorder is very common with the ADAA putting estimates of adult suffers at about 40 million alone in the USA. Some symptoms include rapid heartbeat, shakiness, feeling faint, feeling as if you will die, excessive worrying, sweaty palms, feelings of things not being real, fear of speaking in public, and much more. Please see this link for a more comprehensive list. Also, you can take this online self test to see if you feel you fit the criteria.
While you may feel like you don’t want to “bother” your parents with this issue, I really encourage you to discuss this with them in depth and explain you would like to see a counselor to find out if it is, indeed, anxiety disorder and to get help (in sha’ Allah) to resolve these feelings.
There’s nothing to be ashamed of, brother. Like I said, millions of people suffer from anxiety at one time or another. You are not alone, and there is treatment, so please do seek help!
You are in our prayers brother. Please let us know how you are.
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