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Wa ‘Alaykum As-Salam,
Your heart is indeed very pure. First, you have not failed. You have engaged in learning experiences. You will in sha’ Allah become aware of why you had the experiences that you had over time as your life unfolds. There are no mistakes. Allah is perfect, and He creates a perfect world. You have chosen to walk in this awareness. You are a very highly intuitive person. You might have difficulty with trusting your path and your intuition, and you might doubt things when they do not appear to be as you believe they ought to be. You have not failed, nor has your intuition failed you. I sense that Allah is, indeed, pleased with you, because when a person does his/her actions with the desire to please Allah, this brings delight to our Creator.
The way to pray before your next exam is to pray for the will of Allah to be revealed to you through the results of the exam. Study and do your best. But this time, not to pass or fail, but rather to do your best and learn what you are supposed to learn from the experience. If you pass, great; wait and see what happens next. If you do not pass the test, take some time and make a list of what you have learned from the whole process that you can generalize to your life as you move forward. No matter what happens, you will have an engineering degree and the added knowledge of not only the particular job you were testing for, but of the process of applying for a governmental job and increased test taking skills. Many governments work this way where you take and re take exams, interview several times, and for several different positions, before you get a job. Each time you take an exam or interview, you gain experience that helps you the next time. You might even seek out advice about exam taking and interviewing if you do not feel confident. Yet, I imagine that you do have a certain level of confidence in you skills and abilities at this point.
I can truly understand that you might be feeling like, “What now Allah?” “Where are you taking me?” “What do you want me to do anyway?” That is ok. Life unfolds, and more opportunities will appear. I do not believe that your last dream was a message telling you not to take the test, but rather to continue participating in all areas of life, including applying for appealing jobs, taking tests and going to interviews with less attachment to the outcomes. This way, you are doing your part while also waiting upon the Lord to place you where He would have you be to fulfill His will for you.
You can trust your intuition. You dreams are symbolic messages designed to increase your awareness of your intuition. Continue asking Allah for personal revelation and guidance before you fall asleep. Over time, you will learn how to put the dream and the intuition together to understand clearly what the guidance is. Perhaps this is the work that Allah is doing inside you. Sometimes, what appears to be outward events and circumstances are really just reflections of what we are developing on the inside. I have no doubt that you will find the correct work – the work that is yours to do, in sha’ Allah.
Salam,
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