Q I know 3 sisters who grew up in a religious family and went to Islamic school. They seem to have been sheltered from many things in society and also have completed their hifz, and become Huffaz. I am someone who went to public school and didn’t grow up in a very religious family, nor did I grow up in a sheltered environment. I wanted to become a Hafiz but my hifz journey was interrupted and I wasn’t able to complete. I struggle with my five prayers and am dealing with addictive behavior. I am not used to some rules in Islam because I didn’t grow up with them and also suffer from confusion/bad thoughts about Allah or the deen because of lack of knowledge.

I am jealous of the 3 sisters because of the differences mentioned, I wish I was born in a different family and wish my life was different. I didn’t choose to be born in the family I was born in, nor did I choose my gender (Women have many blessings). How do I cope with my unpleasant reality? I know wishing won’t change anything, but it’s very easy to just sit down and think about how bad I have it and be jealous of those who are more blessed than me in Deen and Dunya. Especially when it comes to things I cannot change, like the family I was born in, my gender, the past etc.