In this counseling answer:
• Seeking the right kind of help and being away from that negative environment.
• Focus on yourself and your well-being.
Salamu ‘Alaikum Brother,
Thank you for sending us your question. I am deeply sorry to read about the pain and hurt you suffered throughout these years. I ask Allah (swt) to help you to overcome the pain that you are experiencing and to help you love yourself and to find peace.
Brother, since I am not an Islamic scholar, I will answer your question to the best of my ability as a mental health professional.
It appears that you have suffered a lot of emotional and physical abuse as a child and that has resulted in the anxiety and depression you feel now. You decided to move out of the family home 3 years ago and your parents have been against that, including most of your siblings. Now you feel lost and need some spiritual guidance.
After everything you have experienced, it would be almost expected for you to feel lost. As a Muslim mental health professional, we understand that such things happen in many homes, including Muslim homes, and that it is a reality that we cannot ignore.
Seek Professional Help
Seeking the right kind of help and being away from that negative environment are the best things you can do for yourself now. Take time to focus on yourself and your wellbeing. By all means, seek out mental health treatment and find a counselor/therapist whom you feel comfortable working with.
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We know that in Islam, we are highly encouraged to get treatment for our ailments and illnesses. Depression and anxiety are illnesses just like any other illness and must be attended to and treated.
I commend you for seeking to help yourself and to get yourself on the right track after enduring so much hardship.
For now, focus on yourself and your wellbeing. Developing a relationship with your family can be a goal for the future when you become stronger. In the meantime, focus on yourself and be around supportive friends and family members.
I ask Allah (swt) to help you through this difficulty and grant you strength, courage, and perseverance to move on and become the person you want to become.
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