Q:

In my childhood I was forced to do zena. That time I don’t even know what is zena or what I am doing. But when I understood what had done by me without my concent i am assembled and always feel afraid to be punished by Allah after death. I beg forgive all time. I read holy quran that for this women 100 slap by stick is prescribed. But that should be before four islamic people. I am married women. I wanted to know that can my husband give that punishment by his hand? And if four people cannot be collected what can I do?

A:

In the Nam of Allah, the All-Merciful, the Mercy-giving.

All praise is due to Allah. Peace and blessings be upon Prophet Muhammad.

If this sexual experience happened without your consent, then you are not responsible for it at all; and you need not feel ashamed or guilty. But it seems that it happened without your “full” consent.

In other words, you did not agree, but also you did not fight back. Anyway, even if it happened with your full consent, this feeling of remorse and regret reveals your sincere repentance. Allah (exalted is He) says what means “Say, (O Prophet): O My servants! Those (of you) who have committed (sins in great) excess against their own souls, never despond of the mercy of Allah! For, indeed, Allah forgives sins, one and all. Indeed, it is He (alone) who is the All-Forgiving, the Mercy-Giving.” (Az-Zumar 39:53)

After listing a number of grave sins and the punishment that awaits those who commit them, Allah (exalted is He) said, “…except for whoever repents, and believes, and does righteous deeds. For (the likes of) them, then, Allah will substitute their misdeeds with good deeds. And ever is Allah all-forgiving, mercy-giving.” (Al-Furqan 25:70) Sincere repentance wipes out even grave sins.

You need not tell this story to your husband or to anybody else. It is better to conceal this affair. The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) is reported to have said, “He who has been afflicted by any of these filthy sins let him maintain the concealment conferred by Allah upon him.” (Al-Hakim)

Let this memory be an incentive to lead a chaste and righteous life dedicated to the pleasure of Allah (exalted is He).

Almighty Allah knows best.