I pray to Allah to grant you relief and comfort and help you overcome your challenges.
In answering your question, I cannot do any better than citing one of my earlier answers:
It is most likely that you are suffering from a serious form of depression; it is important that you seek immediate medical help. Get in touch with your family doctor; he will refer you to a specialist in the field.
Islam teaches us never to despair of Allah’s mercy. So don’t lose hope, but do what you must do in order to take care of your health; this involves consulting doctors, getting treatments and taking medications. Since Allah has ordered us to take care of our health, it is our religious duty to seek medical attention in order to save ourselves from self-destruction: The Prophet said, “Verily your body has rights; your soul has rights and your Lord has rights…so give each one his/her due.”
Depression is a very serious condition; unless treated it could be fatal; so never be slack in getting the proper treatment: While doing so, you should also be consistent in resorting to spiritual healing. Here are a few things you may practice on a consistent basis:
1) Be diligent in performance of your Salah; Salah, when done consciously and with full awareness, will prove to be a true source of spiritual healing and a stress reliever par excellence.
2) Before retiring to bed every day, read Fatihah and the last three surahs of the Qur’an and blow into your hands and wipe over your whole body preferably three times. You may also repeat the same at other times of the day or night as you wish.
3) Try to read at least ten verses of the Qur’an every day.
4) Listen to the Qur’an as much as possible; try to play a recorded Qur’an always around you.
5) Make yourself busy doing something beneficial, for a mind that is not occupied with good things will most likely be occupied with idle matters; remember if you don’t make yourself busy with good works, Satan will make sure to make you busy with his work.
6) Say the following supplications (du’as) while believing in their efficacy, and expecting cure and relief form Allah
Allaahumma rahmataka arjoo falaa takilnee ilaa nafsee tarfata ayn; wa aslih lee sha’nee kullahu , laa ilaaha illaa anata
(O Allah! I implore Your grace and mercy; so do not abandon me to my own devices even for a single instant!)
Laa ilaaha illa Allah al-azeem al-haleem, laa ilaaha illa Allaah rabbu al-arshi al-azeem, laa ilaaha illa Allaahu rabbu al-ssamaawaati wa al-ardhi wa rabbu al-arshi al-kareem
(There is no god but Allah, the Great, the Clement; there is no god but Allah, Lord of the Mighty Throne; there is no god but Allah, Lord of the heavens and the earth, and Lord of the Noble Throne.)
Allaahumma innee abduka ibnu abdik ibn amatik naasiyatee bi yadika qadin fiyya hukmuka adlun fiyya qadaa’uka as’aluka bi kull ismin huwa laka sammayta bihi nafsaka aw anzaltahu fee kitaabika aw ‘allamtahu ahadan min khalqika aw ista’tharta bihi fee ilmi al-ghaybi indaka an taj’ala al-Qur’aana rabee’a qalbee wa noora basaree wa jilaa’a huznee wa dhahaaba hammee
(O Allah! I am Your servant; son of Your servant, son of Your maid-servant; my forelock is under Your firm grip; Your decree is firmly established in my case; Your rule is just in my case. I ask You invoking every single name You possess, with which You have called Yourself, or You have revealed in Your scripture, or instructed any of Your creation or You have kept hidden in the realm of hidden realities with You, to make the Qur’an the spring of my heart, light of my eyes, and alleviator of my grief and dispeller of my worries!)
May Allah grant you complete healing, for He is indeed the Healer and Curer -aameen.