As-Salamu ‘Alaikum sister,

 

May Allah forgive you dear sister and make it easy for you to continue on the straight path. You know that you have sinned, but you have repented for it and are doing your best to avoid letting it happen again.

 

It is understandable that you are finding your marriage difficult if you do not find your husband attractive. Marriage is the best protection from committing further sin with affairs so it’s important that you try your very best to make it work to avoid falling into sin again.

 

You say you have tried to tell him to take better care of himself. If he is not too sensitive, you could just be more firm with him in pushing him to take better care of himself. However, this can be quite a sensitive topic for many, so you could be more gentle and encouraging with the issue.

 

You say he is obese so maybe you could make exercise an activity that you both engage in together. You might like to sign up to the gym together. You can support him through activities in the gym and you can help to motivate him to attend regularly if you go together.

 

Alternatively, find a beautiful place to go for a walk and make it part of a routine. Seeing beautiful scenery together will help to encourage conversation, get to know each other, and develop a love and appreciation for each other. As an added bonus, the exercise should in sha’ Allah tackle his obesity, too. As you come to love him more, you will naturally find him more attractive. This will take time and you have to be patient to allow this love to develop.

 

May Allah give you the patience to face the challenges of marriage and ultimately experience the benefits of a happy and successful marriage, and may He keep you on the straight path.

 

Salam,