Wa `alaykum As-Salamu wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh

 

In the Name of Allah, the All-Merciful, the Mercy-Giving

 

All praise is due to Allah. Peace and blessings be upon His Messenger Muhammad.

 

Having a feeling of being guilty all the time is sometimes a sign of the acceptance of your repentance, because it keeps one cautious of not committing further sins.

 

It was narrated that ‘Aishah said: “I said: ‘O Messenger of Allah, ‘And those who give that (their charity) which they give (and also do other good deeds) with their hearts full of fear.” [23:60] Is this the one who commits adultery, steals and drinks alcohol?’ He said: ‘No, O daughter of Abu Bakr’ – O daughter of Siddiq – rather it is a man who fasts and gives charity and prays, but he fears that those will not be accepted from him.’”

 

But one should not overestimate this feeling if it causes him/her to desperate the mercy of Allah. If one has a deep feeling that he is not excused by Allah, he may indulge more in committing sins. A Muslim must strike a balance between having proactive fear from his lord and getting hope in His mercy.

 

You should also make sure that Allah rewards you immensely for your illness.

 

Abu Sa’id and Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with them) reported that the Prophet  said: “Never a believer is stricken with a discomfort, an illness, an anxiety, a grief or mental worry or even the pricking of a thorn but Allah will expiate his sins on account of his patience”. (Al-Bukhari and Muslim).

 

Almighty Allah knows best.