Your mother is right in telling you not to pray for such things.

 

Such thoughts are due to whisperings of Satan who wants to distract you from performing your essential duties in life.

 

You may do well to remember that our time in this world is too precious to be wasted away in such frivolities; if you believe in God and afterlife, you should be focusing on your essential tasks in life rather than occupying your mind with such distractions.

 

Allah says, “By the flight of time, man is indeed at a loss except those who have faith and do good works and enjoin truth and enjoin patience.” (Al-Asr 103: 1-3)

Imam Shafi rightly said, “If you don’t occupy your times with productive and beneficial works, Satan will make you busy with his work.”

 

So, I would urge you to repent, and ask forgiveness of Allah and focus on your priorities in your life. Remember sooner or later you will face death and then the time will be up for saving yourself from perdition.

 

I pray to Allah to bless us to be steadfast on the path of truth.

 

Almighty Allah knows best.