Wa alaikum salaam wa rahmatulahi wa barakatuh brother,
It seems that you are content with your blessings from Allah, but feel that you are missing that one final piece to bring ultimate happiness in this life; a spouse. Unfortunately, the chance that you had did not work out and you fear this may be a punishment as you do not pray 5 times a day ad you know you should.
Pray 5 times a day
The first thing you should do based on the information you present is to work on making sure to pray 5 times a day. We know that this is an obligation and therefore is something that you must do. You will find that as you come to complete this obligation daily, you will find other improvements in your life generally as you experience a sense of positivity and closeness to Allah.
Spend time with other like-minded brothers
Being in the company of good friends will enable you to feel more connected to your Deen and more encouraged to remain on top of your obligations. Furthermore, they might be able to be of assistance to you in finding a spouse as they can ask within their own circles if there are any sisters seeking a husband. Generally, they will also be able to provide you with the support that will make things easier for you emotionally also.
Whatever happens is by the will of Allah
Even though you might feel right now that certain things are escaping you, understand that if Allah has written something for you, it will happen. Likewise, if it’s not for you then it won’t happen. Sometimes it can be difficult to accept these things when it’s something that we really desire. However, it is necessary to be confident in Allah’s plan. He is a better planner than all of us and knows best. Increasing your obligatory prayers and getting closer to Him will help you to appreciate this more. At the very least, if you still feel like this is a punishment, then be thankful that the punishment is in this life and not the next. However, what is more likely is that Allah has better plans for you if only you will remain faithful and patient.
May Allah grant you contentment in this life and the next and may He grant you a righteous spouse when the time is right.
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