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Wa `alaykum As-Salamu wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.
In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
All praise and thanks are due to Allah, and peace and blessings be upon His Messenger.
Dear questioner, we would like to thank you for the great confidence you place in us, and we implore Allah Almighty to help us serve His cause and render our work for His Sake.
Answering your question, Sheikh Ahmad Kutty, a Senior Lecturer and an Islamic Scholar at the Islamic Institute of Toronto, Ontario, Canada, states:
You are probably suffering from some emotional and spiritual challenges; as is the case with physical and mental challenges, you may do well to get professional counselors to help you to overcome them.
Love of children, empathy, and compassion, are all normal feelings. They are natural to humans. Therefore, Islam encourages us to foster and develop them. An Arab nomad exclaimed to the Prophet (peace be upon him): “You kiss your children! We never do so!!” The Prophet (peace be upon him) told him: “How can I help you if Allah has taken away mercy from your hearts!”(Al-Bukhari and others)
He also said, “Whoever shows no mercy to others cannot expect to receive the mercy of Allah.” (Al-Bukhari and others)
I also feel you need to work on softening your spiritual heart. Establishing consistency in dhikr, seeking repentance, making istighfaar, reading the Qur’an and reflecting on its lessons, contemplation of death, visiting the graves, and also remembering the Prophetic traits of compassion and mercy are the ideal ways of achieving it.
Allah Almighty knows best.