Husband Cannot Stay Faithful to Me

06 June, 2018
Q We got married in December 2014. I knew this person from 2011. Things started becoming different right after our Nikkah. It felt like we fall in love again. He started taking care of me. Giving me surprise visits at my office as that time I was still staying at my parent's home. So, he used to visit me at home. We had regular physical intimacy. It was the most beautiful moments that I even can imagine happened in my life. I have never found him and felt him that way before.

Everything was perfect till I got a call from one my colleagues just before our reception that she is pregnant from my husband. It all happened just a week before our Nikkah. It seemed like she was doing a nasty joke with me. I didn’t believe at first. This is impossible that my husband can do this with his supervisor. I asked him, he denied. I believed him.

But I could sense a change in him; He used to remain depress, sad and unhappy and that woman who once used to be my very good friend kept calling and saying she is 5 months pregnant and she just found out that she is pregnant. My husband denied it. Then the child born and the son looks exactly like my husband.

In between, I found a hotel bill inside my husband's wardrobe and the bill says, he was in a hotel before our Nikkah with a guest for few hours. I didn’t know what to do. For few days, I went to my parents’ house not letting them know what's going on. He came to see me in the middle of night. Asked for forgiveness, cried like a baby desperately.

We then started working on legalizing his son by giving him father's name and legal papers so that woman can say she was married to my husband before our marriage so that society cannot doubt about the child's birth. Both of us struggled to settle doing this issue for a year. My parents found out the news and I said I don’t have problem with that child. I have forgiven.

In these two years, our physical intimacy declined. In fact, nothing happened. Whenever I used to ask him, he used to say tomorrow or on weekends but didn’t seem interested, but he always used to sleep cuddling me. I told him about my willingness to have a child. He said he wants too but there was no action from his side. He comes home, watches TV and sleeps... all this continued till I got another blow about him.

In May, I found out he was having extramarital affair with a married woman at his office. I searched his laptop and found folder where he saved lots of photos of her and their photos together. I found a separate gmail account which he maintains just to send her love email. When I asked him, he said, he is in madly love with her. The kind of love he never felt before. I called that woman one day, and she too even said that she is in love with my husband. It’s a mutual feeling and they are sacrificing each other just for me.

I felt like somebody just stabbed me brutally. I couldn’t breath, I couldn’t see anything. I lost all my nervous system. My husband seems stranger to me. I felt like I don’t know this person. During his recent affair, he behaved like a weirdest person I have ever seen. Every single day, he used to remind me of his recent love. He stopped looking at me. Talking to me. He kept saying he doesn’t want me. I was afraid to tell to my parents because they were once shocked and I didn’t want to put them in trauma again. I told my in-laws everything. They were shocked. When they asked, my husband said, because he cannot feel me romantically that's why he couldn't stay loyal to me. All I could do that time was seeking Allah's help. I prayed as much as I could. Besides regular 5 times prayer I started praying Tahajjud, Istekhara, Allah's name to stop our problem and create love between us.

Then few months later, his recent girl broke up with him. So he came home and started crying like a young teenage broken heart guy. I sat and watched him crying. That feeling when your husband, the person you love most, the person for whom you fought with world telling you how much he loves someone else. After few weeks he told me to take time and see if our relationship works.

It’s been 6 months I am living in my parent’s home and he is at our house. I thought this separation will change him. But no, now he is determined to get rid of me. He even told his male friends that he doesn’t feel charm in me. His parents didn’t even try to contact my parents, rather they are having lots of fun and party. I don’t know what to do. I love him a lot. Thinking of divorcing him tear me inside. Yesterday he told me what can he do if his heart doesn’t want to stay with me. I have given him everything. All these 3 years I have financially supported him and never said a thing. What should I do, I don’t know. Help me.


In this counseling answer:

• He will need to learn that real love is much more meaningful, much more beautiful, and more satisfying than the falling in love process alone.

• Your options are: fight back, forgive, let go.

As-Salamu Aleikom,

Thank you for emailing in with your question. No doubt, it is loaded with a lot of pain from your end. May Allah grant you steadfastness as you work through these challenges.

 Your husband has shown you twice that he is not able to be a loyal man to not only you but any other woman he has been with. He had the chance not to marry you and instead marry the other woman before he married you. But instead, he neglected her and left her alone.

He had the chance to marry only you and be loyal to you but instead has neglected you emotionally and physically as well.

Only time will tell what he does with this third woman who he claimed to love. She was smart and broke up with him, at least initially, but one wonders what he would end up doing with her in time also.

Addicted to the Falling in Love Process

He believes he is chasing after love, but it sounds like he doesn’t understand how to build a real relationship that isn’t based on the “in love” feelings and new passion that comes with a new person.

Here is a quote from one of my favorite authors on this subject:

“Of all the misconceptions about love the most powerful and pervasive is the belief that “falling in love” is love or at least one of the manifestations of love. It is a potent misconception because falling in love is subjectively experienced in a very powerful fashion as an experience of love. When a person falls in love what he or she certainly feels is “I love him” or “I love her.”

But two problems are immediately apparent. The first is that the experience of falling in love is specifically a sex-linked erotic experience. We do not fall in love with our children even though we may love them very deeply. We do not fall in love with our friends of the same sex-unless we are homosexually oriented-even though we may care for them greatly. We fall in love only when we are consciously or unconsciously sexually motivated.

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The second problem is that the experience of falling in love is invariably temporary. No matter whom we fall in love with, we sooner or later fall out of love if the relationship continues long enough.

This is not to say that we invariably cease loving the person with whom we fell in love. But it is to say that the feeling of ecstatic lovingness that characterizes the experience of falling in love always passes. The honeymoon always ends. The bloom of romance always fades.” ― M. Scott Peck, The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values, and Spiritual Growth

As long as he is after this “rush”, he will continue to seek out other women. At some point, he will need to learn that real love is much more meaningful, much more beautiful, and more satisfying than the falling in love process alone.

He is unfortunately very reckless in his behavior, doesn’t understand the major consequences of his choices, and has a repeat pattern of behavior that isn’t likely to stop. He either has to make a major life-changing choice to be a stand-up man or the consequences of his behavior are going to push him to rock bottom. At that point, he likely will have few lefts who will support him or believe in him.

It sounds like right now instead of facing his consequences he is also choosing to neglect you further and leave you at your parent’s house.

What Are Your Options?

You are at a place to decide what you want to do next.

Forgive: Do you want to continue to be married to him despite what he has done? Can you not only forgive him but most to a place where you can fully trust him and be at peace in your marriage? If so, what would have to happen for you to be able to trust him?

Fight Back: Are you in a position where you want to fight back and show up in your marriage and back in your own house? Where you come and tell him that this is your house and your marriage and you and he are going to work together to figure out what is going on so you can both finally build a marriage together.

Let Go: Or are you in a position to let him go so that you can start your life over and marry someone who desires you? Someone who wants to be loyal to you, and cares about your emotions and needs? Someone who will not cheat on you or doesn’t require a lot of emotional work in order to change to do this?

You are the only person who gets to decide right now which path you want to take. What are you willing to tolerate at this stage in the relationship?

Understanding the Severity of What Has Happened

Spiritual Dangers:

You have every right to leave as your husband has violated the sanctity of your marriage and committed zina. This is one of the most major sins a person can commit.

Spiritually, unless he severely repents, he is headed down an extremely dangerous path. Is this the man who can remind you of Allah in your own home and help lead your family away from the hellfire.

“O you who have believed, protect yourselves and your families from a Fire whose fuel is people and stones, over which are [appointed] angels, harsh and severe; they do not disobey Allah in what He commands them but do what they are commanded.” (Quran 66:6)

Raising Children:

You have to determine if this is a man you want to have in your life as the father of your future children. Children inevitably learn about any secret patterns of behavior their parents try to hide. Are you comfortable going back into the marriage knowing three is a high chance he would have a child with you and still cheat on you with another woman?

Risk of STDs:

One of the scary possibilities of a spouse who is cheating with another person is that they could contract a sexually transmitted disease and bring it home to their own spouse. It has happened to other women who discovered they had an STD which is what led them to discover their husband had been with another woman.

When a spouse has cheated, it is wise to visit your doctor for a general screening to make sure there is nothing showing up that you would need to know about. Some STDs are easily discovered while others take years to reveal themselves.

Emotional Wellbeing:

You must also consider the amount of stress, hurt, shock, and disappointment you have already dealt with at this point in time. What you are dealing with is not normal and has had a major impact on your life and emotional well-being. While I am relieved to hear that you have been able to turn to Allah during this difficult time, you must also consider the costs of staying involved with your husband.

Is the pain of leaving worse than the pain of trying to stay? You’ll have to determine that for yourself but consider this question seriously.

Lead For Yourself

With all of these things I’ve outlined, I encourage you to now make your own choice instead of giving all the power to your husband to decide if he wants you or not.

You are worthy of choosing what you want in your life. Before you choose him or don’t choose him – choose yourself. Choose to love and honor you. You are worth it. You deserve to choose a life that you love.

But choose wisely and choose for the long term and know what you are signing up for. There are no more surprises from this man as he has made clear his character up until this point.

May Allah guide you to that which is best for your dunyah and your akhirah and grant you relief from the hardships you have and are experiencing.

Message back and let us know what you learned from this response insha’Allah.



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About Megan Wyatt
Megan Wyatt is the founder of Wives of Jannah where she offers training programs, live workshops, and relationship coaching for wives and couples. She is a certified Strategic Intervention coach with specialized certifications for working with women and marital relationships and has been coaching and mentoring Muslims globally since 2008. She shares her passion for Islamic personal development in her Passionate Imperfectionist community. She is a wife and homeschooling mother with four children residing in Southern California.