As salamu alaykum sister, 

Thank you for writing to us again with your further experiences and details. I am happy to hear that you did block him on social media and that you did start to think less about him.

 

Often times when we make a commitment to ourselves to begin to heal and progress in our lives, as well as progress in our spirituality, we start to feel better. Things that used to be in our minds such as thoughts of others, desire to want to contact those that are bad for us, thoughts of committing haram acts- start to disappear. These are some of the blessings from Allah. We all fall short, unfortunately, you had a slip up-like we all do.  You reported that you did see him at the mall and although you did not say anything to him, when you came home you unblocked him and sent him a message. Sister while that was not a wise thing to do because you were making so much progress, please insha’Allah consider it a minor setback.

 

Think about the reality of the situation. He is going to get married to somebody else. As you stated he signed his contract for marriage. You need to leave him alone not talk to him anymore nor message him.  Insha’Allah, you need to continue to move on which means blocking him.  An important thing to remember is that you need to “block” him in your thoughts.  You can easily block him by pressing a “block” button on your phone.  What is critical is that unless you truly block him in your thoughts and mind, it will be too easy to unblock him on your phone.    Trusting and Depending on Allah

 

Please do make duaa to Allah, that Allah gives you the strength and the determination to get this boy out of your system once and for all. Sister, I also ask that you write a journal concerning this issue. Please do insha’Allah, write down the very important and main points.  #1. Things did not work out between you before #2. He is contracted to get married  #3. It is Haram to contact him and it is unhealthy for you to contact him.

 

Please do make another list of the things that you would like to accomplish.  This will help you to focus your time, energy, and thoughts on that. It could be anything from taking a class, joining a gym, planning for school or anything else that is positive and up building.

 

Insha’Allah, please focus on the things you write down that you are going to do that are positive. When you feel like messaging him or unblocking him, look at your list of why you should not, and then review your list of positive goals and activities. When you feel like you want to message, he pray to Allah for strength and guidance. You want to please Allah swt sister, as well as have a happy and pious lifestyle.

 

A Blessed Path

You stated that you blocked him in order to clear your heart. This shows great strength as well as insight into what a negative effect being in contact with him has on you. While no one knows if it is from Allah that you saw him at the mall or not, it could be that it was a test.  If it was a test from Allah, maybe you did not pass this test totally as you unblocked him and messaged him.  However,  I am confident insha’Allah that you will pass this test in another way-by not having anything to do with him anymore. Sister, you are stronger now, you are more focused, and you have drawn closer to Allah in regards to your dean. Please do stay on this path for it is a blessed path that will bring you happiness. We wish you the best you are in our prayers.