Wa `alaykum As-Salamu waRahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.

 

May Allah reward you and grant us the sincerity like that you are feeling, ameen. The great Abdullah Ibn Almubarak used to stay home a lot. When asked: “aren’t you not feeling lonely?” He said: “how could I be lonely and I am with the prophet and his companions!”

 

I believe every last ten days of Ramadan that passed, you were there around the Ka’bah but in the presence of the soul even your body was not there. The prophet (peace be upon him) told people who were with him in a journey: “you have not crossed a valley or a hill but were shared in rewards people behind you who could not join. They were held by their exemptions.”

 

Allah gave you the honor of loving to be in the holy place, now it is the test of true love to wait for the right moment when you will be free from any distractions, even thoughts of being angry at your husband.

 

The levels waiting for you in Sabr to elevate you in true purity are way higher than those your husband needed to cleanse his past and that’s why it was rushed for him delayed for you.

 

May Allah accept from you both.

 

Almighty Allah knows best.