Asalaamu alaykum Ralph,

I have been where you are, and it is not easy, not at all. This isn’t how Ramadan was meant to happen, isolated and alone.

But, this is the situation for many, many converts. I noticed you said you try to make it to taraweeh, implying you might live near a masjid. If so, I would encourage you to contact them and ask if you could be connected with any other converts near you so that you could meet up to break your fast if possible.

If there are not other converts near you, you could still perhaps meet up with other Muslims who are welcoming and enjoy iftar with them. But if you don’t live near a masjid, this is even more challenging. If you are active on social media, there are many convert support groups where you could “virtually” connect, so in that way you don’t feel so alone.

Lastly, try to remember that although taraweeh is a wonderful thing, it is not required. If you can’t make it to the masjid for taraweeh because you are too tired or because you don’t live near enough to a masjid, don’t feel badly. Taraweeh prayers are just extra prayers and don’t have to be in congregation; you could pray a few extra rakaat (units of prayer) in your room alone, as well. Ramadan is the month of mercy, and it seems you are truly seeking Allah’s mercy as best you can. Allah sees your good intentions.

I hope this helps. Please keep in touch. Salam.