In the Name of Allah, the All-Merciful, the Mercy-Giving

All praise is due to Allah. Peace and blessings be upon His Messenger Muhammad.

This compunction is a good sign. Never feel despaired of repentance. Out of His grace, Allah, the All-Merciful, has opened the gate of repentance wide for all those who repent sincerely and earnestly to Him no matter how grave their sins are. Allah (exalted is He) said, “Say, [O Prophet]: O My servants! Those [of you] who have committed [sins in great] excess against their own souls, never despond of the mercy of Allah! For, indeed, Allah forgives sins, one and all. Indeed, it is He [alone] who is the All-Forgiving, the Mercy-Giving.” (Az-Zumar 39:53)

It is not true that zina is unforgivable sin. Allah says what means “Indeed, Allah will not forgive associating any god with Him. But He forgives anything less than this for whomever He so wills.” (An-Nisaa’ 4:48)

The door of repentance is always there, but you need to keep knocking sincerely until it is open.

Sincere repentance wipes away misdeeds. Forget what you heard from others and put your trust in your Lord. Pray to Him to grant you a pious wife and cherish the good intention of establishing a religious family that seeks the pleasure of Allah.

Almighty Allah knows best.