Q I'm a teenage high school student. Ever since I was in my first year of high school, I've set a few commands and guidelines for myself in sensitive situations, like relationships. Alhamdulillah, with Allah's help, I've got a quiet and awkward nature when I'm with the opposite gender, if it's someone new or strange. But that nature is also quite bad, because since I get shy; I cannot even speak up for myself or use words efficiently as I get shy or nervous.

I'm an extremely immature person. I do want to marry, but I want to marry for the sake of Allah (SWT), only for his sake, with a person whom Allah loves. I don't wish to marry if it's for looks, money, or fame. That's the guideline I've set for myself. "Pure women are for pure men," Allah says in Surah an-Nur, and so I believe that I should spend my life becoming a good Muslim to make my Lord happy.

Since the past year, I've seen a boy a few times. He studies at a different school, and I only saw him a few times last year. His beauty mesmerised me. But only for the moment I saw him, or used to see him. Since he was a normal stranger on the road, I paid no heed. only felt him as a pretty boy on the street. I was curious about him because I saw him with a younger sibling, and that touched me because he was leaving his sibling behind and was walking far ahead.

But ever since the last few weeks, I've gotten to know bits and pieces about him from people who studied at school astonishingly! I felt really curious, and my interest has grown stronger. I don't know much, but only a little bit about his grade.

Other than that, I see this boy every day, mostly waiting for his transport. But for some reason, now I feel my interest converting into a sort of attraction. I won't say I'm infatuated or obsessed, because I'm very much interested in him, and his beauty is what piqued my interest at first. But now, I'm just more interested in knowing how he is, what his personality is, and whether he is at home or at school. I've talked about it with my close friend and my mother as well.

My mother has advised me against infatuation, and I agreed with her. I agree with it. It's going to end soon, right? It's primarily weird to marry someone like that! But that's the thing: I'm willing to learn more about him, to send him a proposal, and everything.

But for that, I really need to know him first. I need to know his family, his parents, about his mentality. But I am way too shy and nervous to do that. It'll seem creepy since he and I have absolutely no relationship; we're just strangers.

I was just practically lucky to learn one or two things from some kids. But he doesn't even know me. He'll get creeped out. But my feelings have grown stronger. And I prayed to Allah, but I can't bring out the words that he should be removed from my heart. I just can't.

I somehow pray to Allah to plan out the best, and in that best, I keep imagining him. I just keep doing that. But I'm doing something wrong. right? Please help me. I've never really liked someone like this. But with him, I feel respectful towards him. I really want to know what I should do. I'm confused. The only answer I keep thinking of is: leave it and don't turn back. Just pray to Allah to get rid of these feelings. But it'll hurt, and it'll please Allah. And the other side of me says to pray to Allah to make a way and to help me.