09 May, 2024
Q
Salam alaikum,
This may be pretty long but I hope you understand what I mean and how I feel.
I started practicing Islam last year and I feel my Iman at the time which I started. Praying tahajjud, doing the Monday and Thursday Sunnah fasting and some other good deeds and Sunnahs and also avoiding harams. At that time I used to feel guilty for my sins. I even felt guilty for cheating on animals.
All I'm trying to say in short is that I used to feel my Iman. But I started to think I over burden myself in this religion that I have to take it easy. Immediately I took that decision of taking it easy on myself. I felt like my iman has dropped since then I have been struggling to search for my iman back.
Lately, I have some kind of feelings I don't know how to explain. I have been feeling I will go to hell and I feel like I have a jinn inside of me because I feel Allah is drawing me closer. And this thing inside of me that I don't know doesn't want to move further. I don't know if it is if I try to force myself closer to Allah it may not even last for a day or maybe 2 days. I don't know what to do. I'm really confused. I can't even explain how I feel because I just get mixed feelings that I can't explain. I hope you understand me.
Jazakallah khairan
This may be pretty long but I hope you understand what I mean and how I feel.
I started practicing Islam last year and I feel my Iman at the time which I started. Praying tahajjud, doing the Monday and Thursday Sunnah fasting and some other good deeds and Sunnahs and also avoiding harams. At that time I used to feel guilty for my sins. I even felt guilty for cheating on animals.
All I'm trying to say in short is that I used to feel my Iman. But I started to think I over burden myself in this religion that I have to take it easy. Immediately I took that decision of taking it easy on myself. I felt like my iman has dropped since then I have been struggling to search for my iman back.
Lately, I have some kind of feelings I don't know how to explain. I have been feeling I will go to hell and I feel like I have a jinn inside of me because I feel Allah is drawing me closer. And this thing inside of me that I don't know doesn't want to move further. I don't know if it is if I try to force myself closer to Allah it may not even last for a day or maybe 2 days. I don't know what to do. I'm really confused. I can't even explain how I feel because I just get mixed feelings that I can't explain. I hope you understand me.
Jazakallah khairan
Answer
It is very common to feel overwhelmed if you push yourself too hard, even in your faith and worship.
Just take a slower pace and try to be consistent with fewer deeds, and increase them gradually.
Reach out to other brothers for tips — you will see that you are not alone.
Change your focus from these negative thoughts with some techniques. How?
Click on the video and learn more!
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