He prays, but he is not THE Perfect one, he had his flaws in past, BUT HE IS TRYING TO GET BETTER. HE gave me his access of socials. The thing is I am such a woman I can't even accept my partner replying a female, even as a friend. I don't do this either. I know he won't leave me, but I don't want him even to give a bit of attention some other female. Now maybe due to my PTSD, I have this constant fear that something wrong is happening behind my back, I have this intense urge to check his phone & socials when we are apart. And whenever I think of checking I face severe anxiety in a fear that if I check probably, I will see something wrong. Yes, I have talked about this fear with my partner. No what's the solution? Should I check his phone on a regular basis?
When trust is broken in a relationship, it can be very hard to gain it back. Especially if it happened between your parents too.
If these issues are not resolved, they can pass on to your next marriage and hinder your relationship, even with a trustworthy, honest spouse.
What can you do?
Get regular counseling and treat your fears about men. You may have developed some beliefs that can cause obstacles to a happy marriage. You can revise them with a counselor and replace them with more adaptive ones.
There are also some techniques available that help regain trust in a relationship.
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