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โข Make duโaaโ to Allah (swt) before Hajj regarding your intention.
โข During Hajj, one focuses on Allah (swt) in love, devotion, and thought and leaves most worldly thinking behind.
โข Hajj also brings together Muslims from every walk of life in a state of brotherhood/sisterhood that negates any differences in tribal, โracialโ, or socio-economic status.
Thus, it increases compassion, unity and reinforces the fact that the ummah is one family.
As-Salamu โAlaikum,
Thank you for your most important question. Surely, performing Hajj is one of the most significant events in our lives, besides being a pillar of Islam.
It is intended to give Muslims the opportunity to elevate their closeness to Allah (swt), erase their sins, and be saved from the hellfire.
โThe Messenger of Allah said: โWhoever performs pilgrimage to this House, and does not Yarfuth (utter any obscenity or commit sin), will go back as (on the day) his nother bore him.โ (An-Nasaโi)
As you can see, this is a significant life event which usually has emotional and even psychological reactions.
Everyone may experience Hajj differently in terms of emotions; however, I am sure, dear sister, that, in shaโ Allah, your experience will be one of immense benefit.
You may experience different emotions as you pass through the different phases of Hajj.
Your emotions may be subtle or overwhelming in the sense that you may not be able to hold back tears.
One brother who made Hajj for the first time reports โIn the same instant, it was as if all my inner barriers were broken.
I was totally transparent and open as a book. My heart was ripped open and tears started flowing from my eyes.
I was a grown man of 32 years of age, and I had not cried for years since in Danish culture we are taught that men donโt cry.
And there I stood in front of a square building and cried like a small child. Cried and prayed, prayed and cried.
It probably lasted for about half an hour, and I was totally lost in that overwhelming feeling.โ
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During Hajj, one focuses on Allah (swt) in love, devotion, and thought and leaves most worldly thinking behind.
Hajj also brings together Muslims from every walk of life in a state of brotherhood/sisterhood that negates any differences in tribal, โracialโ, or socio-economic status.
Thus, it increases compassion, unity and reinforces the fact that the ummah is one family.
Today, many Muslims are caught up in lifestyles and thinking that is not in alignment with Islam.
Racism exists, compassion often lacks, and abuse is rampant.
Making Hajj with a pure intention allows one to gain the essence and light of what Islam truly is.
It brings one closer to Allah (swt) and can compel one to live more righteously, in shaโ Allah.
Experiencing the spiritual and emotional gifts that Hajj can bring, pilgrims can complete Hajj and return home with a purified heart and mind.
Makkah removes the veils of ignorance before peopleโs eyes, revealing the light of faith, and satiates the believers spiritually.
Based on these spiritual and emotional benefits, one can expect, in shaโ Allah, to develop a closer appreciation and concern for the Hereafter; a deeper sense of what is truly important while living in this world.
It helps us reflect upon how we live our lives and how to prioritize things in matters of importance.
Concerning the status of Muslims making Hajj, AboutIslam states, โPilgrims are the guests of Allah and you can imagine how much Allah will honor His own guests: `Abdullah ibn `Umar (may Allah be pleased with him) narrated that the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) said,
โThe one striving in the cause of Allah and the one performing Hajj and the one performing `Umrah are all the delegation of Allah. He calls them and they respond to His call, and they ask Him and He answers their supplication.โ (Ibn Majah and authenticated by Al-Albani)
The thought that โpilgrims are the guests of Allah (swt) and you can imagine how much Allah (swt) will honor His own guestsโ may be emotionally overwhelming.
To be a guest of Allah (swt) is a most blessed event, indeed, and an occurrence that should be taken into great consideration.
Just the fact alone that you are embarking on pilgrimage should bring tears to your eyes as it is an undeserved honor to be among Allahโs (swt) guest.
We are mere servants striving to please Allah (swt), and the fact that we are able to make Hajj should be a humbling experience.
This brings me to the first part of your question wherein you make it clear that you are from a โprominentโ and โwealthyโ family and that you would be staying in the finest hotels.
If you go to Hajj with the premise that you are higher than others because of wealth and social status, you are, in fact, negating part of the reason for Hajj which is equality and brotherhood among all, regardless of wealth or social standing.
To say you are staying in the finest hotels while others are only able to stay in tents or โstandard accommodationsโ is not where your heart should be.
While Allah (swt) has blessed your family with wealth and status, it may also be a test.
In fact, once you make Hajj, you may see these things as less important, in shaโ Allah, and you may be moved to help those who are less fortunate than you.
I ask you, dear sister, to make duโaaโ to Allah (swt) before Hajj regarding your intention.
Look towards Hajj with a pure desire to please Allah (swt), to be saved from the hellfire, and to feel a deep and lasting connection with our fellow Muslims on an equal level of humanity and love for the sake of Allah (swt).
Yes, you may be nervous, it is common, but remember you are making Hajj as an invited guest of Allah (swt).
How great that is, ma shaโ Allah!
You are in our prayers.
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