In this counseling answer:
• I’d highly recommend you seek counseling from a qualified and competent therapist.
• If you have a headache, don’t you take medication to make it disappear? Then it is the same for mental health.
As-Salamu `Alaikum dear,
Thank you for your question. Given the losses you’ve experienced, it is not surprising that you are depressed and in a lot of pain. Based on your question, it also seems like you’re not close to any of your family members, nor do you have many friends. This is a lonely place to be. Loneliness is difficult for most of us; we are intended to be social by the grace of Allah.
You have taken a lot of responsibility for the world and what will happen to all of us when this is not for you to worry about. Leave that to Allah.
What concerns me the most in your email is that your mind is racing with “rubbish thoughts.” This could be an organic issue that is fully biological and not within your control. Thus, I’d highly recommend you seek counseling from a qualified and competent therapist. Describe in depth how your mind is racing, what kinds of thoughts you are having and when the thoughts are most prevalent.
A good therapist can make a diagnosis, and you may even be prescribed medication by a psychiatrist. This is nothing to be ashamed of; in fact, I wish more people who need assistance would seek help.
Most societies have stigmas related to mental health services. However, think of it this way: if you have a headache, don’t you take medication to make it disappear? Then it is the same for mental health. If you need assistance, don’t be ashamed, but rather seek it so that you can live this cherished and valuable life to the fullest.
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In addition, talk to the therapist about the deaths you’ve experienced, your relationships, and how to make them stronger and more fulfilling for you.
Life is short my dear, and there is much good to be done. Go forth and do it, but only after you’ve first taken care of yourself!
May Allah make it easy for you,
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