You have a sinful past, but you have successfully overcome it. You have repented and asked for forgiveness, and Allah (SWT) has concealed your wrongdoing in exchange.
He helped you mold and transform yourself into who you are now. You are no longer the one who was in the past, and you will be judged by others for your present consistency and good deeds.
Focus on the present and acknowledge that, alhamdulillah, you are now on the right path.
Learn more and keep seeking knowledge for the sake of Allah. And know that there is nothing wrong with not knowing the answer to all questions about the deen.
Use these “I don’t know“s as motivation to search for more answers and increase your wisdom and imaan.
What else is there to do? Check the counselor’s advice here.
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