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I Wish I Had Married a Beautiful Woman

11 January, 2020
Q Assalam alikum,

I am a 28-year-old man. I have been married for 7 months now. It was an arranged marriage. My mother showed me 2-3 pictures of my future wife. I saw and liked those pictures and agreed to the marriage.

I saw her the first time on the engagement day. I saw her couple of times after the engagement. I was quite happy as she is a religious girl, she is a doctor. My mother gave me a very good feedback about the girl and her family.

Just before one month prior to nikah, we spoke over the phone a few times and chatted on WhatsApp. I know this was wrong according to sharia as she was a non-mahram to me. After nikah only I saw her closely.

In reality, she has average in looks. She is little short. I assumed she would be taller as it was written in her profile which was given to me. I thought she is very beautiful.

I did not share this problem with anyone. However, I don't really feel attached to her. Maybe because of her average looks. It is about 7 months from our nikah, but we have not consummated our marriage. Her mom came to know about this and it was a big mess among our families.

I feel ashamed to share my problem with anyone or family members because I only chose her. We tried few times, but every time she experiences pain.

She also observed I am attracted to beautiful girls. She notices that I have attraction towards beauty. Despite all these things, she still says she loves me a lot and she wants us to perform umrah.

How shall I deal with the following scenarios?

1) I really want to keep her happy. I am trying to figure out what my real problem is. Is it her looks? Is that I am trying to discover my beautiful girl in her?

2) She is loving, caring and a good partner. She always says I am living with her just for formal marriage. I also know beauty fades away with time. She says she does not feel I have accepted her as my life partner.

3)How shall I convince my heart to overshadow her looks to her qualities, skills, and her love for me?

4)No doubt, it is not her mistake. However, I am unable to protect my gaze when I see girls outside. Divorce is not in my mind. I really need an Islamic advice and solution.

5)I get disturb when I think of proposals which came before her. I am thinking I would have married those girls. She has noticed that I kind of regret this marriage.

6)Sometimes I think I would have chosen a beautiful girl with a bad characteristic. At least I would be satisfied with only her looks. I really want to overcome this problem. First time I am facing this kind of situation in my life.

Day and night I am thinking about this problem. It affects our marital life. I stopped watching porn which you have advised me last time.

I know that islamically, a woman is married for four things. Piety, wealth, lineage, beauty and the best woman is the pious one. I am praying to Allah(swt) and trying to convince my heart to grow love for her in my heart. Please, help me!


In this counseling answer:

• Your wife needs patience and encouragement from you.

• Creating touch between the both of you and enjoyable moments together is a good focus.

• Check out the Purify Your Gaze program. It’s for Muslims who are struggling or did struggle with pornography and other unwanted sexual behaviors including the inability to lower one’s gaze.

As-Salamu Alaikum brother,

Thank you for your question and for reaching out.

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What’s the Attraction?

Let’s first consider the topic of the attraction itself.

It’s generally understood that it’s easy for a man to be visually attracted to a woman who possesses obvious beauty. Visually, you don’t have to try hard to appreciate this kind of woman’s physical beauty.

Then, there is the kind of attraction that develops between people as chemistry is created between the two of them. This chemistry happens when there is consistent close proximity, risks taken in terms of the emotional vulnerability until over time there is both an emotional attraction and physical attraction that develops.

I Wish I Had Married a Beautiful Woman - About Islam

When you walk around the world and look at all the people who are married, you will find that few are married to someone who looks like a model. “Average” people are beautiful people to the one who they love and who loves them.

Lasting attraction and chemistry are created by how two people relate to each other, share their thoughts, emotions, fears, desires, and aspirations. It’s the person who supports the other and believes in them.

None of this is possible as long as you are constantly thinking about other women, comparing your wife to other women, and thinking of all the lost opportunities you imagine you had.

What to Do with a Sexless Marriage

One of the key issues you have expressed is that so far sexual intercourse has been painful for her and so you have both stopped. Medical issues aside, this can happen for a variety of reasons. For example:

* There may not be enough lubrication (a common problem).

* She has nothing to be turned on about because there is no foreplay that arouses her and turns her body on to wanting to be intimate with you.

Women aren’t usually “ready for sex” the same way a man is. Their bodies work differently and require more time and effort so that the experience is enjoyable.

* She doesn’t trust you yet and doesn’t feel ready to be physical with you because of the feelings she has picked up from you about how you feel about her. Emotional trust is a huge part of the sex itself.

* She is scared it will hurt and so creates a situation where her body shuts down. This is a situation of fear creating the outcome.

* A previous trauma has occurred in her life which shuts down her ability to experience pleasure in a sexual context.

* She doesn’t feel confident in her body and therefore closes off out of embarrassment or shyness.

The situation you are describing that she has been experiencing is called vaginismus. I highly recommend you share with her this quote and also both of you read further on them together.

This is from a sister, Tasniya, who was interviewed by author and speaker Umm Zakkiyah. She said in one part of her interview:

“When I got married and I wasn’t able to consummate my marriage, I was very confused. I went to several counselors, Imams, and gynecologists but no one really understood me.

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I felt isolated and depressed because I thought I was the ‘only one’ going through this. For example, my gynecologist gave me an exercise to do: she told me to buy the smallest tampon in the store, put lube on it, and try to insert it into my vagina. It was a nightmare for me! I just couldn’t do it and I felt like a failure every single time.

Therefore, at one point, I seriously considered leaving my husband because I felt as though I was being unfair to him and he deserved better.

Feelings of shame and guilt overwhelmed to the point where I was really having difficulties living a normal life. Insha’Allah [God-willing], my husband and I want to start a family someday and I thought that I could never do such a thing because I couldn’t even have intercourse!”

I recommend reading more about how she was able to overcome this problem entirely.

Be By Your Wife’s Side

After seeking more knowledge on this topic, I would say that your wife needs patience and encouragement from you and a chance to grow in her ability to love and trust you too.

She needs to know her body is beautiful to you. She needs to experience touch that feels good. Things need to move at her pace instead of yours.

I can appreciate that this has been stressful for both of you, but it’s not as uncommon a problem as you think. It’s solvable with time and effort working together as a team.

But that feeling of “we” has to develop. Otherwise, you are asking her to have sex with a person who doesn’t really like or want her. That’s a terrible feeling for her to have to live with and she deserves better than that.

I would highly recommend that you both stop focusing on trying to have intercourse and instead focus on creating touch between the both of you which is enjoyable to each of you. The entire body is a place to experience pleasure.

It’s more vulnerable for you, perhaps, but that may be exactly what you need. To slow down and experience a connection with yourself and with her.

Struggling with Lowering the Gaze

If you are still struggling with lowering your gaze, I’d like to recommend you check out the Purify Your Gaze program. It’s for Muslims who are struggling or did struggle with pornography and other unwanted sexual behaviors including the inability to lower one’s gaze.

There is a solution to your struggle. It just requires some commitment, discipline, and willingness to grow as a person, insha’Allah.

Do Things Together

You have married what sounds like a very good and decent woman masha’Allah. Going on Umrah and doing things together as a couple that is good for your dunyah and akhirah is something positive. It can help you both get to know each other better and develop memories with each other.

If you have the opportunity to do this, give it a go.

Stop focusing so much on what you aren’t feeling. Start looking for opportunities to just get to know her and let her get to know you. Relax and relieve the pressure.

Do something silly together if you can. A small adventure, a hike, a car trip – whatever is possible and within your means. Focus right now on developing a friendship while also keeping in mind all the other points above.

I pray these points bring comfort, ease, and support for your marriage.



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About Megan Wyatt
Megan Wyatt is the founder of Wives of Jannah where she offers training programs, live workshops, and relationship coaching for wives and couples. She is a certified Strategic Intervention coach with specialized certifications for working with women and marital relationships and has been coaching and mentoring Muslims globally since 2008. She shares her passion for Islamic personal development in her Passionate Imperfectionist community. She is a wife and homeschooling mother with four children residing in Southern California.