Q I go to work and school and still find time to do home chores and still share his responsibilities like paying bills and house rent. He always finds time to talk to his friends on the phone or visit them and I am mostly alone. Even when we are home we barely say anything to each other.

His behavior and my bad feelings are tearing our marriage apart. Allah knows best if we should stay together or not. And if we stay together, what is the best way to stop this behavior and this cycle of bad feelings?

Although I feel like the longer I stay the less good I am to do. Because I feel deeply that nothing good will come out of this because there hasn't been any improvement. He is still ignorant and doesn't want to acknowledge my rights as a wife. And absolutely has no respect for me. He demands respect from me when he doesn't show any in return.

I always believed care should be a mutual thing between two people and marriage as well. Not one person always trying to show they have power over you and take that for granted. Something feels dead inside me and I feel like I can only become a better version of myself if we go our separate ways sooner than later.

I have spoken to my parents and other elders about this but my mom and some others are more worried about what other people will say if we separate so soon. Since we had a very beautiful wedding people will basically laugh at our failed marriage and that made me feel even more rejected because I thought my feelings and fear mattered more than what people think.

I do not want to do anything that would result in me doing wrong by him while we are still married or anything I would regret. I have been emotionally and mentally affected by all that has happened and I don't seem to be recovering. Everyday I spend with him in the same house, the more bad memories come rushing to my head I feel like I am losing myself to depression and I want to feel better so I am seeking help. JazakAllahu Khair!