Q Aoa I am a mbbs doctor and due to my diabetes now I am among those who are vulnerable to infections. Should I think that Allah will not make me sick again and expose myself to this risk? Or should I try to find other means of employment meanwhile I don’t have a financially stable family by thinking that Allah will give rizk?

Initially I continued my job which is no doubt stressful and affects my blood sugar and despite controlling it to a good level I got tuberculosis. Alhamdullilah, it got healed. So now I am confused about which way is right. I have been blessed with the opportunity to apply for postgraduate training. I don’t feel confident in my skills, that's why I didn’t open a clinic and thought a postgraduate degree would be a good option. Getting a job is difficult because I try without any references because I think it’s not a good deed but in my country the reference system is strong but my heart doesn’t want it. I can’t change my city as well because I don’t have confidence to live alone with my insulin dependent diabetes which always have unpredictable events e.g. passing out during a night due to hypoglycemia I don’t want to rely on stranger during these events.

So the only thing which is making me guilty is that I am wrong to be afraid of the risks despite the opportunity to avail it. Even the researches prove it to be a risk for diabetics and I have faced it 2 times since diagnosis. It's been almost only 4 years and my life has changed a lot. I know it’s a test but I don’t want to be unthankful but situation seems risky to my health I know type 1 diabetes who served as doctor although they managed somehow but it still takes a toll on health more than a healthy individual.

I hope I made my concerns clear