I was deceived by a married man who cared or pretended to care for me. I really don’t know what he felt for me as I am so much depressed and confused. I’m also married but faced up and downs in my marital life with my husband and in-laws.
My husband isn’t a bad person; he just never cared about my feelings. He feels he is better with his family; he trusts them more than me and my child.
I worked a lot for my home but after the birth of my child 10 years ago, I saw that my efforts and contributions weren't appreciated. As a result, I started to ignore him and we drifted apart.
When I met this married man, we started as friends, but Satan was stronger and led us to temptations. I left my home to be with this man as he claimed he didn’t love his wife and they were not intimate for years. He even swore on the Quran this was true. Allah knows best.
He said his wife left home but is back now and is creating problems, so now he wants me to go back to my husband. I can’t as I left for so long, but I’m officially still married to him. I lost everything for this man: my honor, my image, and he is hiding behind his wife.
He promises to come to me and swears on the Quran he doesn't love his wife at all, but about many other things he has lied to me. I don’t know what I should do.
I love him too much and hate him at the same time. He provides me with everything, yet he doesn't dare to be with me. He says he is evil, and he knows he hurt and betrayed me. I doubt even that his wife left home.
Please advise what I must do. We stopped sins. I pray a lot as always but still find myself nowhere. I don’t know if I feel love for my husband. This has gone for so long. I just feel sad and sorry for him.
He did hurt me many times when I was with him by not trusting me and caring for me. I don’t need his sympathies as I am also so much hurt in my life. I have lost everything.
Answer
In this counseling answer:
- The first option is to remain married to your husband, if you choose, with the hope that he can forgive you for the affair. If he is open to forgiveness, then the next step is cultivating the fulfillment you two need which caused the affair in the first place.
- The second option is to wait to see if the man you had an affair with actually wants to move forward with his partnership with you. You can give him more time. And see if he is willing to marry you and you are still willing to marry him.
- The last option is to get divorced from your current husband. If you really are unhappy and neglected, regardless of getting remarried. In this case, you will need to consider practical options on lifestyle and family support.
- While I understand the pain of love and heart break is heavy, and it seems like things in life will never get better, time will heal.
- These sour experiences will help you have a sweeter tomorrow through the wisdom you have gained from these mistakes.
- Remember, we are spiritual beings in human experiences and the soul is what helps us endure what the body and mind cannot burden.
Salaam sister,
I am sorry to hear about your grief and the difficult journey you are in. Human nature, in my opinion, seeks meaning and value in life. If we do not feel this from our loved ones, it can leave us feeling empty and lost. When this happens, we seek to fill the void through other relationships that can fulfill our sense of value again.
Despite your particular psycho-emotional variables, the reality is that you and this man had an affair and with that comes no good. Unfortunately, you are now reaping what has been sowed. But do not despair. Allah says in the Quran:
“And seek forgiveness of Allah. Indeed, Allah is ever Forgiving and Merciful.” (Quran 4:106)
Remain with husband
There are a few options to consider at this point:
The first one is to remain married to your husband, if you choose, with the hope that he can forgive you for the affair. If he is open to forgiveness, then the next step is cultivating the fulfillment you two need which caused the affair in the first place.
This will require long-term marital therapy, but with patience, the rebuilding of trust, and sincere efforts, there may be a chance, in sha’ Allah. I recommend you review this website to get started on affair recovery.
Check out this counseling video:
Give the other guy a chance
The second option is to wait to see if the man you had an affair with actually wants to move forward with his partnership with you. You can give him more time. And see if he is willing to marry you and you are still willing to marry him.
While this new marriage will come with its own baggage and issues, due to the fact that each of you is breaking up your previous marriages. Perhaps it can also find some success with sincere efforts and commitment to one another, if your bond is true of substance.
Divorce
The last option is to get divorced from your current husband. If you really are unhappy and neglected, regardless of getting remarried. In this case, you will need to consider practical options on lifestyle and family support.
Review your legal rights and get your extended family involved in the process. During this time you focus on providing for yourself. And purifying your heart and soul before Allah and see what life unfolds for you as far as future partners.
While I understand the pain of love and heart back is heavy, and it seems like things in life will never get better, time will heal. These sour experiences will help you have a sweeter tomorrow through the wisdom you have gained from these mistakes. Remember, we are spiritual beings in human experiences and the soul is what helps us endure what the body and mind cannot burden.
God makes it easy for you and yours.
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