Unfortunately, suffering from abuse as a child is common globally as is struggling to separate fantasy from real memories as a consequence.
In and of itself, it is a blessing that you are able to identify that there is something to address and heal from. Particularly as a man, because many of them carry their pain without ever opening up.
The best thing to do is to start therapy, where you can work on healing your past and your memories.
The healing process would help so much in your future marriage. Try it as soon as possible, before you enter marriage and even before you start searching.
You will feel stronger and ready to make a commitment. Then you can decide whether you want to share your past with your future spouse or not.
Click on the video to learn more about the importance of working on past trauma.
More from sr. Aisha:
- How Do I Overcome PTSD After Being in Prison?
- Overcoming the Consequences of Childhood Sexual Abuse
- Emotional Abuse: Enough Reason for Divorce?
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