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Wa ‘Alaikum Salaam sister,
Divorce can have such a huge impact on someone’s life because it has an impact on all aspects of life from physical and emotional to financial and psychological and involves many changes. Therefore, it can take a long time to find one’s feet again and that’s is why you are still facing the consequences of this separation until now. This is a time when you need the most support, but unfortunately in your case it seems you are not getting the support that you really need right now and this makes the process of adjustment even more difficult. Understand that it takes time to overcome all the difficulties you face as a result of divorce. This is perfectly normal.
It seems like you are relying solely on your family for support in finding a new spouse, and since they do not support you in this, you feel yourself down. This results in your hatred towards them because you see them as your only option to finding a new spouse. Certainly, if they are adamant that no one will marry you, this is only going to bring your self-esteem down even further.
However, there are other ways by which you can seek a spouse, maybe via friends. Or you may find assistance or advice via online support forums. There are many support forums online for sisters in exactly the same situation as you are. Joining such support networks will provide you with comfort from sisters. It will help you to not feel alone as you deal with the consequences of your divorce. They may also have advice for you on how to go about seeking another spouse. Facing the problems alone without support will make things very difficult, so being socially active is very important. Having the support from others might make it easier to let go of the hatred you feel towards your family as you come to realise that you don’t need to rely on them to find you a spouse and you are receiving support from those who do not taunt you. As you become more comfortable and confident in yourself, this hatred will dissipate, in sha’ Allah, as your self-esteem grows.
Unfortunately, in many cultures, there is a stigma attached to divorced women and, therefore, they find it difficult to find another spouse. Seek solace in the story of our beloved Khadijah (ra) and how the Prophet (saw) married her even though she had previously been married. If the best of men married a previously married woman, then be assured that there is hope. Any good man who wants to follow the footsteps of our beloved Prophet (saw) will not have any problem in marrying you, even if you have been married before. Have faith in Allah (swt) that you are going through a test right now. With patience, He (swt) will see you through successfully. Having this firm faith and comfort in Allah’s mercy will also help to soften your heart and overcome any feelings of hatred that you feel towards anyone in your journey to overcoming your troubles.
May Allah (swt) bring you ease in your affairs and make it easy for you to find a righteous spouse who will bring happiness and stability into your life once more.
Salam,
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