Answer
Salaam Alaykum Sister, Thank you for contacting us; Ina lilahi wa ina ilayhi rajioon (to Allah we belong and unto Him is our return). It’s quite saddening to hear about your child. May Allah bring you ease and strength you in dealing with your loss; may He reunite you with the baby in Jannah. We also pray to Allah to grant you a child who will be the coolness of your eyes in this life and the Hereafter, Aamen
Let me first of all start by saying that it’s normal for any woman who experiences child loss to be plagued with similar thoughts just as you are having. May Allah make things easy for you. There is absolutely nothing that can prepare one for the grief of losing a beloved one, especially a child; certainly it’s a catastrophe which often comes with a shock.
But dealing with the shock as a believer is one of the core teachings of Islam, starting with the phrase I used in the opening part of my answer “Ina lillah wa Ina Ilehi rojihun” (to Allah we belong and unto Him is our return) which reminds us that in any situation we find ourselves, whenever a calamity strikes, a very powerful way and mechanism of processing it and managing the whole range of emotions that come with it is to remind ourselves that “to Allah we belong”; He is our Creator, our Maker and unto Him is our return. It is through patience we can process it, no doubt, that is why the Prophet, peace be upon him, said in an authentic Hadith: “Verily, patience is at the first stroke of calamity.”
Patience as a virtue always comes with blessings as Allah promised in the Qur’an when praising believers who upon being struck with grief and sorrow calms their hearts with the words “Ina lillah wa Ina Ilehi rojihuun”. He says: “Those are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy; and those are the ones that are rightly guided.” (Qurán 2: 157)
So sister, take heart and be mindful of the above-mentioned teachings, rest assured that doing that will further strengthens you and your step on the right path. May Allah be with you always.
It’s always very important that you surround yourself with support from loved ones and family who will stand by you with their encouraging words of positivity and hope.
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