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Salam Dear Brother,
Let’s agree first that your keenness on knowing Allah and worshipping him the right way at such an early age is an indication of a promising Muslim youth.
Thank you very much for your question and for contacting Ask About Islam.
We ask Allah the Almighty to help you remain steadfast in your faith and support you in embracing Islam in your daily life.
Qualities of Allah
Allah is Unique in His entity, actions, and attributes. We have to believe that Allah is the Only Creator of this universe.
He controls everything and nothing happens without His knowledge.
Allah is beyond time and space. Allah is beyond our imagination of anything like Him. There is to Him no equivalent.
Allah is not like any creature that He Created whether it is human or jinn. Nor do any of His creatures look like Him.
This is what the Quran tells us about Allah:
God: there is no god but Him, the Ever Living, the Ever Watchful. Neither slumber nor sleep overtakes Him. All that is in the heavens and in the earth belongs to Him. Who is there that can intercede with Him except by His leave? He knows what is before them and what is behind them, but they do not comprehend any of His knowledge except what He wills. His throne extends over the heavens and the earth; it does not weary Him to preserve them both. He is the Most High, the Tremendous. (Quran 2:255)
Say, ‘He is God the One, God the eternal. He begot no one nor was He begotten. No one is comparable to Him.’ (Quran 112:1-4)
Coming to your question, the experience you are going through is a test from Allah the Almighty.
Since you started to recognize Allah and His existence and His duties on you, Satan wants to lead you astray.
Don’t Entertain Satan
Satan works day and night to fulfill his mission. He tries all possible means to take you out of the track you planned for yourself in your relation with Allah.
Always seek refuge with Allah from these Satanic whispers. Allah says:
If a prompting from Satan should stir you, seek refuge with God: He is the All Hearing and the All Knowing. (Quran 41:36)
Brother, please rest assured that the pictures you are imagining of Allah do not affect your faith and you are a sound Muslim.
These are just a part of the dirty war that Satan has launched on you to lead you astray. I advise you not to focus on these issues again. Don’t give Satan a chance to beat you.
Read what Allah says about Satan and his temptations:
Children of Adam, do not let Satan seduce you, as he did your parents, causing them to leave the Garden… (Quran 7:27)
…And do not follow Satan’s footsteps, for he is your sworn enemy. He always commands you to do what is evil and indecent, and to say things about God that you do not really know. (Quran 2:168-169)
Satan threatens you with the prospect of poverty and commands you to do foul deeds… (Quran 2:268)
Tips to Avoid Such Thoughts
When such bad thoughts come to your mind, occupy yourself with something else. Change your position.
Perform wudu (ablution) and offer two rak`ahs (units of prayer).
Have a copy of the Quran and read parts of it. Busy yourself with learning more about the Prophet and his life.
Read what Allah commands the Prophet when reading the Quran:
[Prophet], when you recite the Qur’an, seek God’s protection from the outcast, Satan. He has no power over those who believe and trust in their Lord; his power is only over those who ally themselves with him and those who, because of him, join partners with God. (Quran 16:98-100)
When you repel such whispers, it is a good sign of your sound faith. You have to know that following the footsteps of Satan will corrupt your faith.
Once, a man came to the Prophet and said,
O Prophet of Allah, one of us finds in himself [Satanic whispers about Allah] and feels so bad that he would rather burn until he became like charcoal than to reveal what he is thinking about.
Thereupon, the Prophet said:
‘Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar! Al-Hamdu Lillah (praise be to Allah) Who limited his plots to whispers only! (Ahmad and Abu Dawud)
Always think of Allah as a great and mighty entity. We pray to Allah to help you to overcome Satanic whispers.
I hope this answers your question.
Salam and please keep in touch.
(From AboutIslam’s archives)
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https://aboutislam.net/counseling/ask-about-islam/god-male-female/
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