Question 1 – Dealing with ocd

Aoa. I have been diagnosed with ocd. I often have silent panik attacks and due to my ocd i have developed general anxiety, i went to a therapist, but i didn’t complete my course so now i have ocd symptoms again, often i can’t feel my legs, each episode i face leave me to a complete breakdown. I have endless doubts over my faith. I sometimes feel like i dont care if i am muslim or not or i feel like i dont believe in Allah, if i say shahada i feel like i dont mean it and i feel like i dont have any intentions at all when i ask for forgiveness like i am numb or just saying stuff without meaning it. I have soo many doubts over everything this is all i think about and i even think i think these thoughts by myself i have caught my self doing it soo many times which increases my anxiety alot. I asked an islamic scholar from trusted website he thought me to ignore all of it and that i dont have to worry about intentions as saying the shahada itself is enough to proof it i felt a lot better after it but now i fear he said that only bcz i have ocd and that because in somedays iam feeling ok and can think straight i get these thoughts that now i have to have firm intentions and that what the scholar said is only valid for ocd i fear if i start therapy again i would be facing these thoughts, whenever i try to busy myself i have thoughts about a kufr word and i feel like i not only just agree with the word but also the feeling this is my biggest stress and reason of anxiety as i can’t explain it to any one, its like having a kufr word or sentence in ur head but blurred and because u are reading so u read it too and sometimes its just a feeling of a kufr word and u agree witb the feeling that that says oh its a kufr word so that makes me very anxious if i have done kufr because its the feeling iam agreeing with that is litteraly saying oh its a kufr word or something like that.

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Question 2 – Enquiry

Assalamu Alaykum, I want to become a clinical Islam psychologist and I’ve seen a story where some people become atheists while studying it and I worry because I want to be a Muslim forever. I want to know if there’s anything I can do because I’m afraid that if I start studying it I might be among. Also my parents don’t want me to study psychology, I’ve been begging them and I’ve cried to them and I’ve also prayed to Allah to please help me. I really want to become a psychologist.

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Question 3- cheating husband

i have been married since 8 years i have 2 daughters alhumdulliah. we have arranged marriage so my husband is living usa and i’m from pakistan. My husband start cheating with me since day 1 when i came in usa i’m living here since 2015 he have so many bad habit smoking drinking going out with friends. so recently he cheated on me i try to make him stop but every time he make excuses that it’s nothing just a friend or she just don’t wants to leave me so after all of this he told me that he leave her but still he’s with her and now he’s ignoring me ant don’t talk are spent time with me what should i do.

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Question 4 – I can’t stop lying and hiding things from my husband

Multiple times I have lied and hidden things from my husband, which later when he found out is heartbroken. I hate this to see him heartbroken and sad . I want to get rid of this behaviour.
I hide things and lie because somewhere I’m scared of him that he will get upset but in the bargain I still end up upsetting him. Please help.

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Question 5 – Intentions in actions

Aoa i have ocd.I am very confused to which extent it is just my ocd or my real feelings.I feel like i dont believe in Allah,even when iam making dua i feel like iam just doing lip service and i dont mean anything by it.At times i feel like i have done kufr so i ask for repentance and say the shahada but i can’t understand my intentions,like i am saying shahada but i dont think i have the intent of re entering islam by doing so,or i ask for forgiveness because it comes to my mind that i should or sometimes i just do it immediately like on default nd don’t think of anything so i feel like iam just doing lip service,how can i identify what is my intention.i feel numb and feel that i have no intent of anything at all.

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Question 6 – Depressed due to Husbands behavior

My Husband has stopped praying namaz and made a daily routine to talk to women, flirt with them and ask money. He lost his job (due to his deeds maybe) and now full time he is on phone . He even threatens me to marry other women if I interfere in his issues. We have 3 kids and I made myself independent by doing online job. Now he is demanding me to get money from my Father to migrate to other country to start a new life . I am in depression and asking Allah’s guidance. I dont have any1 to share my problems with. I am stressed, alone , I cry daily but still put a smiling face for my kids . Please pray for me and guide me on how to deal with this. Please pray for my Husband to come back to deen . He becomes arrogant if I advice him to pray.

Question 7- I don’t know what to do with my parents.

Hi, I am contacting you because I need help, I am a 20 year old girl, and I had suicidal instincts since I was 14 years, now not anymore, because I know it’s haram.
recently i found my way into islam so i changed a lot, i wear hijab, i always think and act thinking about allah.
but as I became an adult I realized that the relationship with my parents is not one of the best known and, they too are Muslims, but they do not follow Islam entirely, so when I changed so much for them it was a shock, it took me much to convince them that I want to wear the hijab, and in doing so I have heard a lot of insults from them.
I suffer from anxiety and depression since I was a child, I was bullied at school and at home I was insulted / ignored / beaten by my parents, since I was 11 years old I have noticed that my parents treat my siblings differently, they think that I as an elder sister I have to educate my brothers, and if there are quarrels between me and my brothers it is always I who have to sacrifice myself and not create problems, and recently they have started to use Islam against me.
I tried to confide in my father, because I decided that I no longer wanted to take responsibility that was actually theirs (educating my brothers) and for the umpteenth time I asked him if they could take into account my feelings and my mental health , after I confided in him, my mother changed her attitude again.
I started doing volunteer ramadan, and I wanted to do them on weekends too, but they got angry saying that I can’t do ramadan, and stay the weekend without doing anything at home, that I have to cook and help around the house in the weekend (and I said that I can cook, and I always clean ), so I didn’t know what was the problem, in the end I told him that I don’t do ramadan anymore on weekends.
my dad and i have always had a bad relationship, as a child he would raise his hands to us, saying we had to be polite as we were raised by grandparents up to 8-9 years old, and we were rude and wild, now i seek the way of not provoking him and he hardly hits anymore, even if he has sometimes threatened to do so.
with my mother instead as a child I thought that our relationship was normal, but growing up I noticed that she doesn’t care about my feelings, she says in any case that it is I who should change, she ignores how my brothers behave (unless whether she has suffered them), and uses my weaknesses to hurt or insult me, uses guilt to control me, when I try to talk to her about these problems, she told me to go to a therapist or to shut up because she didn’t have the health to listen, she plays the victim very often and my father too, my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and depression, but everyone pretended nothing happened, but when they diagnosed it to her after me, she uses this “weapon” to control and victimize herself , I do not deny that she is ill, but I cannot be an adult / parents to them, they always put their needs and feelings first, both economically and sentimentally, and I would like to put some boundaries with my family, because if I continue like this I risk going crazy.
I understand that as a daughter I should help and understand them, but I cannot neglect myself and always put my family’s needs first.
my questions are: how can I set boundaries with my parents?
What are the responsibilities that I have as an elder sister towards my brothers in the Islamic sphere?
can i move and visit sometime? (my father is 52 and my mother is 44).
do i have to give all the money i have to my parents? (most of my clothes are from when I was 14-17 and I only have a few modest clothes, not too tight clothes that I can wear, even though they criticize my wardrobe for having broken or old shoes, they won’t let me buy anything but my brothers buy branded clothes every year)
i tried to suppress and put up with everything because allah azzawajal said to always respect and obey parents, and to be patient with other people, but i don’t know what to do because if i continue like this i risk having more serious mental health problems later on, and I don’t want my children or husband to have repercussions because of my trauma, the thought that I am the problem and that I am disappointing allah azzawajal is scaring me, I don’t want to cut off relations with my family, but I would like to think more about myself and put my needs first, because that way I can’t go on in a healthy way, I need your help please.

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Question 8 – Sexuality

Does Allah care about me and why are same-sex relationships haram? Ever since I was 12 I’ve been questioning my sexuality. I haven’t been able to fall in love and I haven’t had sex. I’ve self-stimulated to being with both sexes, however now I no longer do that. I’ve self-harmed due to a conflict between my feelings and faith.