was seeking for a teacher in Islam, I was praying constantly all day to God "Help … Help … Help … Help .." over and over and over all day for almost two years, because I did not know what to do or where to go.
The Creator wants us to worship Him. Bilal wanted to impress God by everything he did because when he dies he knew that is what is going to count. Bilal knew for certain that bad deeds will not impress God.
I wanted another way of life. I wanted something which is going to give me a way to live my life which would be in harmony with my intellect and my emotions and my instincts, not just like one of my instincts.
I was thinking “who is this guy?” He left me with this cash. I could just take it and leave and he’d never catch me. Then I started thinking about why he wasn’t worried about his money. What is it that was so important that he left his money to a stranger?
As I was working here I had no idea about Islam, nothing at all, apart from the fact that I had seen some pictures on TV where I thought what Saudi Arabia would be like
When I actually started researching, I found a lot of things that I was really surprised, that there was a lot of rights that I agreed with in the religion, and a lot of rights they had given women...
It became easier for me to practice Islam openly, and not hide it or be in the closet about everything, like when someone asks me about my faith I don’t have to be quiet any more.
Islam has given me the vehicle by which I have established a personal relationship with my Lord and Creator.
God has blessed us with the ability to make du’a, speak to God, your Creator and tell him your worries, your pain, tell Him you're upset and insha’Allah He will make this trial easy for you. Du’a has the power to change our conditional qadar (pre-destination), it is so powerful and will get you through some of your darkest hours.
I became a Muslim by studying about Islam myself. I didn’t know anybody from any of those Muslim countries. I just studied Islam by myself and decided I wanted to become a Muslim.
I came back home with lots of information feeling a little bit overwhelmed but vowed to continue this journey despite the challenges I would face in the future.