I am 19 and have been engaged for 2 and a half years now. My fiance doesn't live in the same country as me so we recently have done a nikkah so I would be able to go to his country.I have only met up once with my fiance and this was when he first proposed to me. I didn't like him then and I still don't. I have never felt comfortable, I always thought that it was due to me being engaged at a young age but now that I'm older I don't think so anymore.He seemed like a nice generous guy. I asked him about whether or not he drinks and he said that he doesn't so he seemed perfect except for his anger issues.He went back to the country he's currently living in after and we continued to talk on the phone. All this time I still didn't feel comfortable with him but the people that know him said that he is a very nice well-mannered man and that I was lucky to have him. I thought that I was just being immature.After a few months of talking he completely ignored me for a whole month. When he called back he acted as if nothing happened. I tried to ask him why he has done that and he said to not talk about it because he doesn't want to and that I should be more romantic with him. I was young and have never been in a relationship so I had no clue what to do.A bit after that he told me that he drinks and that I shouldn't tell my parents about this because this is our relationship and they shouldn't know things like this. I was so scared of not pleasing him so I pretended I was fine with it. That was a big mistake.We continued to talk and I just couldn't open up to this man no matter how hard I tried. The drinking was really bothering me as well. So I mentioned it to him again and he got really angry, he started to call me names and he said I'm only looking for trouble. He also told me that he wasn't going to stop.I didn't want to make the same mistake as last time so I told my parents. They didn't react the same way I thought they would, they said most Muslim men drink and that I shouldn't be annoying my fiance about it! I was so surprised. I felt all alone, I felt like I was making a big deal out of nothing.Then he ignored me for 3 months, this was around the time of the nikkah. His dad traveled to our home country to meet up with my uncle so they can do the nikkah. I put my foot down and told my parents that I wasn't going to marry a man like him and they finally agreed with me but they were still hesitant because they were scared that I wouldn't get married due to me being engaged for so long.My fiance finally called and when I answered I put it on speaker so my parents could listen in. He said that he would treat me really well, that I would be able to study and work. He said what else could I ask for? He also said that inshallah he would stop drinking and that I don't know the future.My parents fell for this and told me to go ahead with the nikkah. Again, I thought I would listen to them because they are older and they want the best for me.I was visibly upset for a while and I just couldn't trust that he would stop drinking. I asked him about it again after a few months and he reacted in the same way as before and said that he didn't lie to me in the beginning, which means that what he said to me before the nikkah was a lie. This time he also said that were not fully married (as in we haven't had a proper wedding and we don't live together) so if I don't like it then I should just leave. I told this to my mum and she was angry at me for asking about him drinking. Yet again he stopped calling.I don't want to marry this man. I don't want to move to a country where I know no one else but him. However, I'm scared that I'll be leaving a good man and I have set my standards too high. Do most Muslim men really drink? I'm scared that I'll never find any one to marry me because there isn't a lot of Muslims in the country I'm in. There is also a lady here that talks badly of me so I'm scared that that will lower my chances of marriage aswell. I have always excelled in my education and alhamduallah I also take care of my looks but the lady always lies about me.Should I complete my marriage with this man? And if I leave him do you think I won't ever get married?
Sorry that it's so long and thank you for reading.
Wa alaikum salaam wa rahmatulahi wa barakatuh sister,
It is understandable why this scenario is causing you so much distress. Of course, you want a good husband and this man seemed to meet the criteria and others seemed to testify to this, but over time he seems to have shown evidence to the contrary and this has cast doubts for you.
There are few different things to consider here. First of all, if you have done the Nikkah then in the eyes of Allah you are married regardless of whether you have done a traditional legal marriage also. Either way, it is important to understand that marriages do take work and they will be testing at times, each in their own way. Before marriage, people might often imagine a perfect marriage, and certainly, there will be times like this, but there are also hard times too. This might make marriage seem a whole lot less appealing, but it is actually the testing times that can bring the couple closer to each other and closer to Allah. These are the times where a marriage is actually strengthened and will eventually improve the marriage in many cases. It is surviving these difficulties that will build the marriage. Of course, it doesn’t seem ideal, but it requires some patience and communication between the couple. Your parents have advised you to stay with this man, and perhaps it is this wisdom that is making them say this, their understanding from experience that marriages do need to be worked on. They only want what’s bs for you and wouldn’t want to see their daughter in a bad marriage, so try to trust their words and let them support you in this.
Remember that everyone has their weaknesses, in his case, it seems his drinking is the problem. Unfortunately, we often seem to let these weaknesses outshine the positive things. That is not to say that his drinking should be ignored, because it shouldn’t, but you could try approaching things in a different way. First of all, do remember that he does have good qualities too, and others seem to spurt that, so try and focus on these and how they can be a source of success to your marriage.
Then, regarding the drinking, as his spouse, you can be a positive influence and rather than reprimanding him for it, try and support him in giving it up. We know that drinking is haram and it is not a usual thing for a Muslim man to do it may well be common in some cultures, but that doesn’t make it permissible. There are good reasons why Allah forbade it and you can see that first hand as a result of the consequent anger that he exhibits. Showing support to him in giving it up might make him more inclined to try, as well as nurturing a positive attitude in the marriage as he feels supported by you. If it were that you had not already done the Nikkah, the doors would be open for you to walk away, from both an Islamic and practical perspective, but since it seems the Nikkah is already done, it is important to try and do what you can to save the marriage before considering walking away.
At the moment, you haven’t been living together. This means you haven’t had the chance to see each other’s true colors, to see the positives shine also. It is difficult to build a marriage like this and can place great strain on things also. Perhaps, since you are married in the eyes of Allah and are therefore permissible to one another, perhaps you could spend a bit more time together, to get to know each other. You don’t necessarily have to go straight to living together at this post if it is not feasible, but perhaps you could spend a long weekend together somewhere and really get to know each other beyond the phone calls. This will give you the space to express your concerns to him, as well as see the good points that others have spoken about too. If you fear to do this alone together, maybe you could bring your parents along for support.
There is the fear that if you don’t continue this marriage that you will miss out on the opportunity to even get married, but this is not true, other opportunities will come along. But, in your case, if you have done the Nikkah already, you are married in the eyes of Allah and if you choose to leave, you would need to follow the process of divorce first before seeking another spouse. There is great wisdom in the process of divorce in Islam as it forces the couple to think more deeply about if it’s what they really want and puts them in a position to at least try and make it work at first.
Even though you have done the Nikkah already, there is the option to go for a divorce and look for marriage elsewhere, following the rulings of Islam, but we also know that Allah does His best to protect marriage because of the huge benefits it has for everyone. It is a difficult choice to make regarding whether to stay or go, and not one that you should just do without thinking. Take time to consider the options and make istikhara. Ask Allah to guide you to do what is best for everyone and what Allah will be most pleased with.
May Allah guide you to make the best choice and grant you a spouse who will bring you happiness in both this life and the next.