In this counseling answer:
• Please, understand these protective rules of marriage are not isolated to Islam and your family; his own family would most likely not be in favor of this relationship either.
• Cut the connection.
• Identify your coping skills.
• Find true love in worshipping Allah.
• Make a vow today for yourself, say bismillah and make this effort for Allah (swt).
Talk to your family with honesty.
Avoid being alone with non-mahram men.
As-salamu alaikum wah rahmatullahi wa barakatu,
Thank you for taking the time to write in and sharing your feelings with us.
It is my understanding you feel love for a college peer who happens to be Hindu. It is also my understanding you were both involved in a secret relationship for months.
To begin with, sister, you are only 18 and this is, I assume, your first experience with these types of emotions. I know that right now it seems like no one else can compare and he is the best possible husband. I promise you, inshallah, not only could these feelings go away over time, but you could find yourself in deeper love with someone else.
Let us immediately address the topic of marriage with this boy. I know this is not easy on you, but we have a direct command within the Quran regarding this type of marriage.
“And do not marry polytheistic women until they believe. And a believing slave woman is better than a polytheist, even though she might please you. And do not marry polytheistic men [to your women] until they believe. And a believing slave is better than a polytheist, even though he might please you.” [Quran 2:221]
Hindu parents traditionally prefer their children to marry other Hindus, often within their own social and religious class. I noticed you did not mention his family and their reaction. If he has never expressed this to you, then this is a bad sign because he knows this better than I do.
Please, understand these protective rules of marriage are not isolated to Islam and your family; his own family would most likely not be in favor of this relationship either.
I imagine you dream of a happy marriage one day with supportive family and children, inshallah. How does that happen if both families are against the union and disagree over faith? How would that affect the children caught in the middle?
I know movies like to say love is all you need. However, that is only in the movies and not reality.
You mentioned he expressed talking to your family about this so you decided to be in a relationship with him. Then your sister found out a few months later. This tells me he never spoke with your family. It also tells me he knows what to say in order to get what he wants from you.
While telling us about your sister and mom, there was no mention of his family’s reaction. If he has never had a conversation with you about his own family, then once again, he knows what to say to you. Did his family ever know about you? I know that question hurts, but it is the harsh reality.
This young man could have been manipulating you the whole time with false promises. He may not have even questioned his sexuality but used that to give you a false sense of security. I am not trying to hurt your feelings; I am trying to give you honesty. Some men in this world will say and do anything to get what they want from a woman. Especially when they are young and seen as vulnerable.
Ending the Relationship
You mentioned breaking up with him after speaking with your Mother. This is a good first step, but maintaining this is the real test.
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Here are some ways to help you while you recover:
Cut the Connection Completely
You might feel the temptation to contact him again, even just as friends. You can think of this like putting drugs in front of a drug addict. This only makes the process more difficult and invites shaitan back in. It is important you create distance between yourself and him. Delete contact information and block social media. You are detoxing him.
Identify Your Coping Skills
Coping skills are techniques used to minimize stress or negative situations. Find a positive activity that will help redirect your mind during the difficult moments. For example, when you are thinking about him at home, take out a journal and write poetry if that eases your mind. Some other examples would be nature walks, reading Quran or exercise.
Fasting and Du’aa’
Our Prophet (peace be upon him) encouraged us to fast as a means of controlling our impulses and keeping us more conscious of our faith. In addition to fasting, make du’aa’ and reach out to Allah (most honored, most revered). Ask Him for help during these tough times, ask Him to guide you and provide you with a good marriage.
Find True Love in Prayer
Sister, the purest and deepest love is the one between you and Allah (swt). Reflect on one of his names, Al-Wadud. It means The Most Loving, Most Affectionate, Beloved, The Loving-Kindness!
Slow down during prayers. Feel it. Let it all out on your prayer mat and find comfort in the loving embrace of faith.
“O you who have believed, seek help through patience and prayer. Indeed, Allah is with the patient [Quran 2:153]
Talk to Mom
Your mother has your best interest at heart. She loves you more than you know. She is able to identify hardships in this union that you are not able to understand yet. Trust her, confide in her and invest time in honest communication. It will help you vent those painful feelings and inshallah deepen your bond with mom.
As you heal from this, take time to ensure it does not happen again. I encourage you to make a vow not only to yourself but also to Allah (swt). Do this for your faith and you are more likely to stick to it.
In the future, when you find interest in a man, talk to your mother. Let her know how you feel and what is happening.
When we have romantic feelings for someone, it puts blinders on our eyes. We only see the good and ignore the bad side, but mothers see it all. Your family is a great resource to help you.
Avoid being alone with men. This is a part of our faith and absolutely is a protection for women. If you have to do a school project with a male, do it in the classroom or a public library. Better yet, ask your professor to assign you, female partners.
Always pray istikhara over small and large decisions. Marriage is never to be taken lightly. It will change your world and not always for the better.
To summarize, your steps towards healing and preventing this from happening again.
- Cut the connection
- Identify coping skills
- Fasting, Duaa
- Find true love in worship
- Make a vow today for yourself, say bismillah and make this effort for Allah (swt)
- Talk to your family with honesty
- Avoid being alone with non-mahram men
- Pray istikhara
Your closing statements talked about your family disowning you if you pursued this man and you questioned if Allah (Swt) would forgive you. I urge you to see this from a different perspective. If you go after this young man, you are trying to force your family to permit what is haram and go against the guidance in Quran.
Allah (Swt) has more love for you than you can imagine. Seek his forgiveness with true intention to avoid repeating those actions. Rely upon that divine love to get you over this temporary young love. Allah (swt) guided you to write in to us, this shows He wants you to make the best decisions.
May Allah (swt) guide you on the best path, heal your heart and fill it with his light and love,
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