In this counseling answer:
“In order to forget thinking about him, you need to distract your mind with others things/activities that you enjoy doing. If you do not keep yourself busy and your mind occupied, your thoughts will distract you, and make you feel restless and unsatisfied.”
As-Salamu ‘Alaikum dear sister,
Thank you for placing your trust in our ability to propose a solution to your current situation.
Evaluate Your Actions
I would like to start off by asking you to seek forgiveness from Allah for the sin that you have committed. It is not allowed in Islam under any circumstances to maintain a relationship with the opposite without marriage. Allah advises us to lower our gazes even when considering marriage and meet in the presence of a chaperone while limiting the number of times potential spouses see each other. Therefore, given such strict guidelines, the first step is to seek forgiveness of Allah.
Secondly, what you feel towards this individual is not necessarily love. It can merely be lust. Men and women are different. They are made to be attracted to each other. Consequently, Allah, in His Wisdom, has ordered us to limit our meetings to professional purposes only. However, if the guidelines set by Allah are not followed, then it is not difficult for Shaytaan to intrude and deviate us in the direction for which we will have to pay for at the end.
Dear sister, a Muslim woman is not allowed to marry a non-Muslim man. I am not a scholar to explain this any further, for that you must consult the Ask the Scholar at Aboutislam.net. Therefore, your interest in him in the first place was not commendable. However, we are all humans. We all sin. And the best ones are those who realize their mistakes and repent and turn back.
You must do all you can do remove him from your thoughts and memories. If you do not let go of him, you will never be able to move on and obey the commands set by Allah for our very own benefits. Thinking about him will render you sad, depressed, hopeless and will change your life for the worst.
Allah says in the Quran,
“But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.” (Quran 2: 216)
I understand that you want to marry him and pray that he accepts Islam. However, we are not in control of his heart. Only Allah is. If Allah thinks that marriage with him is good for you, then I am sure he will convert and come to you. However, if he decided he does not want to convert, then you, being aware of what is right should, in all honestly, politely apologize and part ways.
Keep Your Mind Occupied
In order to forget thinking about him, you need to distract your mind with others things/activities that you enjoy doing. If you do not keep yourself busy and your mind occupied, your thoughts will distract you, and make you feel restless and unsatisfied.
Do Dhikr Often
Allah says in the Quran,
“Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.” (13:28)
Allah says in the Quran,
“O you who have believed, seek help through patience and prayer. Indeed, Allah is with the patient.” (2:153)
Initiating Your Desire to Be Married
Marriage is an important part of Islam. It is a way of protection in many forms. However, Allah has declared a set time for everything, and nothing will ever happen outside of its set time. You simply need to be patient and seek guidance from Allah.
If you are interested in marriage, and you are not sure where to find someone, you need to get your parents involved, perhaps your local imam as well, and talk to some of your friends. It is possible that others have approached them with similar intentions.
In addition, I would like to advise you to not think too much about marriage. Marriage is a blessing from Allah and has its destined time. It is not in your control. What is in your control is your present. Spend the time listening to lectures about marriage. Marriage is not as easy as it seems. You need to input effort to ensure that it runs smoothly and that it is successful.
As a Muslim woman who is God fearing, conscious, and trying to be pious, you should strive to change yourself for the better. When you are thinking of marriage, you need to consider the guy’s piety above everything else. Nothing really matters in the end besides the piety of an individual.
If he fears and loves Allah, he will keep his wife happy. If he loves Allah, he will be seeking halal ways of earning money. If he loves Allah, he will love hard work and righteousness in all aspects of his life. If he loves Allah, he will be a good father. And if he loves Allah, he will be a source of obtaining Jannah for yourself and your future children.
Marriage is considered half your deen. Therefore, you should think about marrying someone who is capable of balancing the worldly affairs and the religious affairs while keeping Allah in mind.
Therefore, you should make loads of du’aa’, seek forgiveness for your sins and become regular in your acts of worship. In addition, I think if you are serious about getting married early, you should pray Tahajjud on a regular basis because a du’aa’ which is made at Tahajjud is sure to be accepted.
I hope my answer provided the guidance that you were looking for. I pray that Allah facilitates your desire to get married as soon as possible with the right person.
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