Q As-Salamu Aleikom. I have been married for 22 years. It has been a love marriage. My parents weren't too happy at first but later gave their consent. I am not pleased about it. I do have regretted and have repented. I know it was wrong Islamically. Early into my marriage, the problems had started: my husband had an extramarital affair. He used to watch porn, he cannot lower his gaze and I have various types of problems with him. But I chose to stay due to my kids and maybe also due to the stigma of divorce. I have to admit that he is a good man, reads his salaah and Quran, and takes care of us financially. I haven't spoken to anybody about these problems. I know if you hide a sin of a person, Allah will hide your sins and inshaAllah I have hope that he will hide mine. I came through life giving my all to my kids, giving them an Islamic education. But many years down the line I think because I haven't dealt with my situation properly, I bottled everything, I think it has been affecting me and my marriage. I still have a lot of doubts. Is there any duaa that I can read to remove all this doubts and suspicions? Is there any duaa that I can read for the contentment of my heart and peace of mind? Please also advise on ways that I can get close to Allah. I pray regularly and read Quran and attend various Islamic programs, yet I feel that there is something missing. These issues I feel are now eating me up from inside. Please advise. Jazakillah, may Allah reward you in abundance.