Q Assalamo Alaikum. I took my shahada 5 months ago on my own. I can't get to the closest mosque to me at all and know absolutely no Muslims where I live. I try my best to study on my own and have made some friends online in other countries that try their best to help me but is limited due to do language differences. I have a learning disability so I learn very slowly. I use sites like yours to learn the best I can. My biggest problem is learning and memorizing the prayers. I seem to not be able to remember any more than about half of the prayer. I am completely alone, frustrated, and feel like a failure. My friends worry about my safety because I get threats a lot but they can't do anything to help. Some of my friends feel that the solution is for me to marry as soon as I can because of my age and that I am alone and lonely. On top of it all, I have a mental illness due to being abused, raped, beaten, and sold most of life from age 10 till about 5 years ago. I desperately want to leave my country which I can't afford to do as I barely can afford to eat. I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost and alone. I am afraid.