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I Think I’ve Committed Shirk; I’m Scared

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Jul 18, 2018

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Salaam, I am a young person. When I was even younger like 16, I gained an interest in Egypt and read about kings in Egypt and everyone is aware how these kings called themselves god (astaghfirullah).

Then I read a story about a boy who had a major GOD Complex. It was more of a cautionary tale about arrogance and in the end, he faced the punishment. I stopped reading these things when I became aware of how bad they were. I am not educated in Islam so I didn't realize I was committing Shirk. Now I am more close and I found out that I may have unintentionally committed shirk by reading this story and history. I get evil whispers saying that no matter how much I ask for forgiveness Allah will never grant me Jannet and you should give up. I feel terrible and depressed.

I have lost the motivation to do anything. I prayed for forgiveness, did ghusal and read the shahadah. I feel so ashamed and fearful Allah will never forgive me for my silly mistakes as a naive 16-year-old child. I committed shirk. How can I deal with this?

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I Think I’ve Committed Shirk; I’m Scared

In this counseling answer:

• If you have sincerely repented and said shahada Allah will and has forgiven you.

• Replace the negative statement with a positive.


As Salamu Alaykum brother,

Thank you for writing to us. As I understand your question, you stated when you were 16 you developed an interest in Egypt. You read many things about the kings in Egypt and then you read a story about a boy who had a major God complex. You indicated this was more of a cautionary tale about arrogance but in the end, he faced punishment. At this point, you stopped reading when you became aware of how bad it was. So, your question is if you were committing shirk.

Brother, I’m not exactly sure what your activities entailed besides reading. The question that you must ask yourself is, did you engage an act of worship not for the sake of Allah but directed towards other deities? If you did and you were not knowledgeable about Islam, you did not know you were committing shirk as you stated.


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As you know Allah swt is the most merciful, most forgiving and He forgives all sins except for shirk at the time of death. If you feel that you did commit shirk (and only you know what activities you engaged in), insha’Allah brother, please do repent to Allah and ask for forgiveness.

When we sincerely repent to Allah it is like our slate is wiped clean, we are forgiven. With this knowledge of Allah’s love and mercy, you need to let go of the past concerning your possible sin of shirk and move on with your life, focusing on other things which are more conducive to your Islam and your life.

It seems that this has been in your mind for a long time tormenting you, brother, but if you believe in Allah’s promise to forgive then you can be sure you are forgiven.

The evil whispers can either be something your mind has produced out of anxiety (obsessive-compulsive disorder) and worry or it may be the Shaitan. When these thoughts come brother, seek refuge in Allah and make duaa.

Next, replace the negative statement with a positive (i.e. yes, Allah has forgiven me) and repeat this process until it stops. It can be quite possible it has turned into a learned thought, one which you taught yourself when you discovered you may have committed shirk. You probably thought Allah would never forgive you. By thinking this over and over for a year, it became part of your cognitive process.

You can change it, brother, by replacing the negative thought with the positive. If you are unsuccessful, please do seek counseling with a therapist who is familiar with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

AboutIslam states, “There is no doubt shirk is an unforgivable sin. However, a person who has renounced shirk and affirmed the faith in the Oneness of Allah has left it behind and started a clean slate. So, it does not matter that he or she committed shirk in the past. The testimony of faith or shahadah wipes out the past. This is why all those who had been guilty of the most sins including shirk and bowing and sacrificing to the idols and became Muslims later were forgiven.”

Brother, as you can see, if you have sincerely repented and said shahada Allah will and has forgiven you. Please do insha’Allah, work on correcting your thinking in regards to the negative thoughts.

We wish you the best,

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Aisha Mohammad-Swan received her PhD in psychology in 2000. Aisha worked as a Counselor/Psychologist for 12 years for Geneva B. Scruggs Community Health Care Center in New York with a focus on PTSD, OCD, depression, anxiety, substance abuse, marriage/relationships issues, as well as community-cultural dynamics. She is certified in Restorative Justice/ Healing Circles, Conflict Resolution, and Mediation, and is also a certified Life Coach. She is currently studying for her certification in Islamic Chaplaincy, and takes Islamic courses at SHC. Aisha works at a Women's Daytime Drop in Center, and has her own part-time practice in which she integrates counseling and holistic health. Aisha also received an MA in Public Health/Community Development in 2009 and plans to open a community counseling/resource center for Muslims and others in the New York area in the future, in sha' Allah.

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