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• I think the main thing that your husband is possibly concerned with is his ability to make money and support his family. This is a very important matter and he should be where he can make a good living.
• Try to approach it as a team effort, as one with each, with love. You might want to make a list together of the positives of California and negatives. Do the same for New York.
• If you approach the move differently, with an open heart and mind, you may have a different experience this time around.
• I kindly suggest going to the Masjid, get involved in Islamic events, take some classes, join a gym. Do things that interest you. Seek out sisters to make friends with. It’s not hard to do in the city.
• Make Allah (SWT) the foundation of your marriage. Pray and read Qur’an together, and promise to resolve any disagreements based on the Qur’an.
Assalamualaikum dear sister,
It sounds like you are going through a lot concerning your marriage as well as adjustments in how you both communicate your needs. Sadly, the issue of where to live has adversely affected your marriage due to many factors.
Experiencing Similar Feelings
Sister, it seems as though you and your husband are having some of the same feelings and internal conflicts. Sadly, you are taking it out on each other. As I understand, you were raised in California and your husband is from New York. You’ve been married for one year. When you got married you did move to New York and you had a very hard time adjusting.
You missed your family, your friends, the familiarity and the more laid-back lifestyle that California offers. After some time when you did not adjust, your husband agreed to come to California and live, so you could be happy.
As it turns out, when he got to California and lived here for some time, he too started missing his home and family in New York. So, he was going through similar emotions that you were going through when you lived in New York.
You hated New York and could not adjust, and he seems to hate California and cannot adjust either. One of the more important factors is that it seems that he can make more money in New York as opposed to California, despite a rough financial setback when you first got married.
Seeking to Please Each Other
Sister, I understand your hurt and anger. However, I can see his as well. You both are seeking to please each other by moving back and forth across the country, only to find one or the other of you is not happy. I am sure that you love each other very much, but the issue of both of you wanting to live in your “home” states is causing anger, accusations, irritability, hurt, and other destructive patterns in your marriage.
I think the main thing that your husband is possibly concerned with is his ability to make money and support his family. This is a very important matter and he should be where he can make a good living. It is probably very frustrating for him to have to depend on you to help with bills or give him money when he does not make enough his current job.
Yes, he probably misses his family and the familiar surroundings of New York. However, I think that the main issue is the financial portion of him not being able to make as much money in California as he made in New York. I can imagine, that for a man who is newly married, he is concerned with providing for you.
The back and forth arguing about moving to California was probably a concession he made, to make you happy. However, as it turned out, he is not making it here financially. This alone can lead to frustration and tension in the marriage, especially since he agreed to move to please you.
Empathy and Discussion
Currently, there is a lot of stress, hurt and anger between you and your husband. You stated that he currently tries to pull you away from your family and tells you things that hurt. He is also withdrawn and doesn’t want to socialize with your family. You also stated he just goes to work and then stays in his room.
Sister, it does sound like he may be worried and even possibly depressed at this point. Insha’Allah, try to think about how you felt in New York. He may be feeling the same emotions you that you did. Only as head of the home and the husband, he has the responsibility to support you which may be his main worry right now. Additionally, I am sure he wants to appear as capable in front of your family and he may be feeling insecure and not very adequate, thus his withdrawal.
Perhaps sister, you and your husband could sit down when things are calm and discuss your move. Try to approach it as a team effort, as one with each, with love. You might want to make a list together of the positives of California and negatives. Do the same for New York. Write down the things you like and dislike about both places, and your husband can do the same.
Insha’Allah, if you each review the lists and cross out the points that are not main factors, you may be able to narrow it down to something that is workable for you both. At the same time, look at the negatives for the place you will be living in and brainstorm together how to turn it into a positive or at least find a workable resolution to try. Look at the situation as your first challenge together, and vow to resolve it in a loving, unified way.
At this point, you have agreed to go back to New York as it is causing a lot of problems between you and your husband. You may wish to discuss with him how you can adapt to the area better. Perhaps he has some points or tips that would be useful. As he is from New York he should know how to make you feel more at home.
You both may want to draft out a plan together which includes him securing a job and place to live prior to moving there again. If you approach the move with the basics in place (a job and home) it may make the transition easier for you. Security is important when making a move and does take some advanced planning and getting things in place.
Changes and Adaptation
Sister, I understand this is a big change for you. I feel your emphasis and pain about feeling so alone in New York. Naturally, you will miss your family, but that is a part of marriage sometimes. When we get married, we often do have to leave the area where we grew up, leave our families and start a new life.
Sometimes that change is hard, it’s understandable. Perhaps you can work out a way that you come back home a couple times a year to visit your family and spend time with them. Living in New York is a big difference from living in California. It is a much faster pace for one. Additionally, depending on where you lived in California, there are a lot more people, living much closer together in New York.
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The upside to all this, however, is that there are a lot of Masjids, Islamic centers, and things to do depending on your interests. Perhaps sister, part of your inability to adapt to New York may stem from missing your family and feeling resentful that you must leave them. This is never easy, but insha’Allah you will adjust.
Insha’Allah, if you approach the move differently, with an open heart and mind, you may have a different experience this time around. I kindly suggest going to the Masjid, get involved in Islamic events, take some classes, join a gym. Do things that interest you. Seek out sisters to make friends with. It’s not hard to do in the city.
You may be pleasantly surprised and how welcoming and loving they are. While they can’t take the place of your own family, our sisters are a great source of support love and strength. Increasing your social life in New York will insha’Allah help you to adjust better.
Making Marriage a Stronger Bond
Sister, try to repair the relationship with your husband. I realize you are hurting right now, but he is your life partner, the one who Allah (SWT) gave to you. Insha’Allah, you can both start out on a new path that includes comforting each other, showing love, empathy, and mercy towards each other.
Make Allah (SWT) the foundation of your marriage. Pray and read Qur’an together, and promise to resolve any disagreements based on the Qur’an. If you apply Islamic principles to your marriage, insha’Allah things will become much easier for you both.
You and your husband may want to consider going to marriage classes at your local Islamic center or Masjid. Many do offer these classes and in addition to learning more about marriage, you learn about communication skills, how to resolve differences, and other useful skills. The classes can also be fun and engaging and bring you both closer to each other and to Allah.
Lastly dear sister, once you move back to New York, if you’re still feeling alone despite trying to have a new outlook and new activities, please do seek out a counselor in your area to help you with adjusting to your new life. Make duaa (supplication) to Allah to grant you ease in this process. After all, as we know, Allah is most merciful and does love us and wants us to be happy. Trust in Allah.
We wish you the best,
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