Wa ‘Alaykum As-Salam dear sister,
I am sorry to hear about this situation. I think there are two main issues to deal with here. The first is your husband and the situation in your marriage and the second is his cousin trying to communicate with you to show an interest in marriage while you are still a married woman.
First, in terms of the situation with your husband, I would like to ensure that you know in Islam there are many verses in the Qur’an and hadith (Prophet’s authenticated traditions) which emphasize the importance of not harming oneself or others, of gentleness, and of kindness such as “There shall be no infliction of harm on oneself or on others” (Ahmad)
“Indeed, gentleness does not enter into anything except it beautifies it nor is it removed from anything except that it makes it ugly.” (Imam Muslim)
“Those, in whose hearts is no mercy for others, will not attain the mercy of Allah.” (Bukhari and Muslim)
All of these attributes, in addition to others, are even more important in a marriage which should be characterized by love, mercy and tranquility as Allah (SWT) tells us in the Qur’an:
“And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put Love and mercy between your (hearts), verily in that are signs for those who reflect.” (30:21)
Also, in a marriage, it is the husband’s responsibility to ensure he is taking care of his wife and his family as the Prophet (peace be upon him) says: “All of you are custodians and will be asked about your charges. The Imam is a custodian and will be asked about his charges. The man is a custodian of his family and he will be asked about his charges. The woman is a custodian of her husband’s house and she will be asked about her charges…” (Bukhari)
I am not sure how the selection of your husband took place sister, but when considering marriage, the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “If one whose character and religion please you comes to you (with a proposal), you should marry him (to your single women). If you do not do so, there will be tribulations in the land and great corruption.” (Tirmidhi)
Therefore, there is a great emphasis on character and religion when a sister wants to choose a husband.
If you feel that your marriage is not serving any of the purposes and meanings above, and, as you mentioned, there are problems with alcohol, drugs, unfaithfulness, and abuse which are all very serious matters, then you need to evaluate the situation and decide on how you would like to move forward. Divorce is never an easy decision to make and has its own implications; however, remaining in a marriage that can be a threat to your and your daughters’ well-being and safety could have even worse implications.
You mentioned that you run the business so alhamdullilah you have a source of income to support yourself and your daughters. Make du’aa’ and pray the istikharah prayer for Allah to guide you what is best and trust that if Allah takes something away, He will replace it with something better in sha’ Allah. We are told in the Qur’an:
“Whoever fears Allah, Allah will find a way out for him (from every difficulty) and He will provide for him from sources that he could never have imagined.” (65:2-3)
Now, when it comes to the issue of his cousin contacting you and expressing his interest in marrying you while you are a married woman, this is inappropriate. Therefore, my advice is to cut off all communication with him and not let the Satan enter into this. If he tries to contact you again, you can ask him that he needs to be conscious of Allah and his actions are inappropriate. Even if you become single again and want to consider marriage, I would suggest you to take your time and be very careful with your selection. Ensure that you are not entering into another marriage without careful consideration of the characteristics necessary for a good husband and for someone who will be a good father to your daughters and treat them like he would treat his own. Later, if you are more interested in learning more about this, you may visit www.findingloveandmercy.com or read books from Dr. Rida and Ikram Beshir.
In the meantime, remember that we are all humans and prone to making mistakes. What’s important is that we repent and ask Allah to forgive us, stop the sin, vow not to do it again and if it involves hurting someone else, seek their forgiveness. If it is not possible, then at least make du’aa’ for them.
You are still young ma sha’ Allah my sister, so my advice is to take time also now to learn more and teach your daughters about the religion of Allah. Learn the Qur’an, learn about Islamic sciences and once again strengthen your relationship with Allah (SWT) for ultimately only He has the power to heal us and to mend what is broken. For learning about the meanings of the Qur’an, I highly recommend br. Nouman Ali Khan’s lectures which can be found on YouTube. We are told about the Qur’an being a great source of healing, guidance and mercy for us:
“O humankind! There has come to you a good advice from your Lord and a healing for that (disease) which is in your breasts — a guidance and a mercy for the believers.”(10:57)
So I would advise you to engage more with the Qur’an, prayer and remembrance of Allah as we are told
“And seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah].” (2:45)
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