In this counseling answer:
• I kindly suggest you make du’aa’ to Allah (swt), asking Him (swt) to help you erase this from your mind so you can enjoy the profound blessings and experiences from Hajj.
• You did nothing wrong. He did. Please, sister, don’t let it tarnish your feelings for all Muslim men. More importantly, do not tarnish your feelings of joy and purity for your own experience of Hajj then or now.
As-Salamu ‘Alaykum my dear sister,
I am so sorry to hear of this terrible thing that a man did to you during Hajj. It is most despicable. However, this person will be dealt with by Allah (swt). A hadith by Bukhari states that
“Allah’s Messenger (saw) said, “Whoever performs Hajj to this House (Ka`ba) and does not approach his wife for sexual relations nor commits sins (while performing Hajj), he will come out as sinless as a newlyborn child. (Just delivered by his mother).”
The person who did this to you, sister, obviously committed a grave sin and to Allah (swt) he is accountable.
I can understand your disgust and disdain for Muslim men, but you know just because someone is Muslim does not mean they will act accordingly. Sadly, you had an encounter with one such person, but please, sister, don’t let it tarnish your feelings for all Muslim men. More importantly, do not tarnish your feelings of joy and purity for your own experience of Hajj then or now.
You did nothing wrong. The other person did. I kindly suggest you make du’aa’ to Allah (swt), asking Him (swt) to help you erase this from your mind so you can enjoy the profound blessings and experiences from Hajj. In sha’ Allah, do not let the other person’s sinful action become your burden, for it is not.
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Dear sister, in sha’ Allah, I encourage you to put this out of your mind and let Allah (swt) deal with it. I encourage you to focus on your wonderful memories of your previous Hajj and look forward to the immense blessings of your next Hajj.
Hajj is a time between you and Allah (swt). Anything that tries to interfere with it, pray to Allah (swt) about it, give it to Him (swt), and continue on your journey. It is the other person’s sin to carry, sister, not yours. Look at it as a test for overcoming a negative and being able to focus on the positive. The benefits and joy you received from your previous Hajj far outweigh that one person’s sin. Give it to Allah (swt) and approach your next Hajj with a fresh perspective, knowing that Allah (swt) sees all and knows your heart. Approach the next Hajj as a newborn child expecting to have a wonderful spiritual experience.
While I am sure others have had similar experiences during Hajj, the point is to not hold on to one bad experience, but focus on your worship and your completion of Hajj.
We wish you the best, sister!
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