As-Salamu ’Alaikum my dear sister,
I am so sorry to hear about your difficult marriage and the abuse you had to suffer. I am happy though sister that you divorced this man and have started a new life. May Allah bless and guide you sister in your efforts.
While you did not indicate how long the abuse lasted, often times the trauma, stress, and mental anguish continue long after the abuse has stopped. A lot of women who are survivors of domestic violence/abuse may suffer from depression, low self-esteem, PTSD, anxiety, panic disorder as well as other mental heath symptoms, even years after the abuse has ended. Some women have ongoing nightmares, dibiliating depression, feelings of worthlessness, and lingering fear and depressive episodes.
While I am not sure if this is the case with you, I would highly suggest sister that in sha’ Allah you find a therapist in your area and seek counseling. Women who have been through abusive relationships often need counseling to help them heal, develop a healthy self image, and manage the symptoms of depression, PTSD, and other resulting mental health issues.
I often advise clients who were in similar situations to put off marriage until they are healed from the abusive past relationship. This ensures you are mentally healthy enough in sha’ Allah to enter a new relationship without bringing the past hurts and traumas into the new marriage. I know this is not what you want to hear as you feel lonely right now, but in the long run, it will be a benefit in sha ‘Allah to you and your future husband.
While I am not an Islamic Scholar, I cannot speak upon evil jinns, but what I can say is that your symptoms you briefly mentioned are very similar to other women who are survivors of abuse and have lingering trauma and depression. Thus, my recommendation to you is to get counseling.
I would also kindly suggest that you try to get out and do fun and social things with sisters. This will help you feel connected and also provide a support system. It will get your mind off of negative things, bring some joy to your life, and provide new interests and a balance in your daily activities which is a benefit. Draw closer to Allah (swt) by praying, making du’aa’, reading Qur’an, and doing dhkir. Ask Allah to grant ease and help you to heal from the traumatic marriage you were in. Allah is most merciful.
By giving yourself a chance to heal and recover and actively taking the steps to do so, you are increasing your chances for meeting a qualified, wonderful future husband, in sha’ Allah.
You are in our prayers dear sister. Please let us know how you are doing.
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